Good moments 🌈
hey everyone, i'm creating this space for myself to come to every day, hopefully, and share my good moments. ✨
when i say 'good moment', it doesn't mean i have to feel happy or anything. it could be anything that made me feel a tiny bit better or something that made me feel good for a little bit. it could even be something that happened that's supposed to be good, even if it didn't change how i feel. or if i'm having a particularly bad day, a good moment could be a moment when i just didn't feel that horrific. and of course, it could be a moment when i just somehow magically feel fine for a bit, with no apparent cause. magic, lol. 🪄
i've recently realised that thinking of good moments makes every day feel a tiny bit different, instead of every day feeling the same and having that school, homework, exam, eat, sleep, repeat cycle going on. when i'm depressed and have been for months on end, it's really easy to just see that and forget the good that does occasionally come. perhaps after a while of posting on this thread, i might even be able to go back and read previous good moments when i'm feeling awful.
i know that every time i try to feel better and actually get to feeling better, it eventually comes crashing down soon and i feel bad again. but i guess i'll try to feel better anyway by focusing on the good moments. and when i do get to feeling better, i want to make the best of it and use it to get work done, so that the times when it gets bad again don't affect my schoolwork too much.
i will really try to come here every day and post something, even if it's very small and seems insignificant, even if i feel like i didn't have anything good happen that day. and if i ever have a miracle day when i have a lot of good moments, i'll try my best to list them all out for me to read on the awful days that follow (somehow my really good days are always followed by some really bad ones, and it sucks). if i ever miss a day of posting, i will try to post that day's good moments the next day.
i know that sometimes i will need to mention the bad stuff too here, to be able to explain why something was a good moment, but in general, i will try my best to avoid talking too much about the bad on this thread.
thank you, @bestVase7265, for encouraging me to write down my good moments. this idea of yours has been of a lot of help to me. i hope it works well with this thread for posting good moments. feel free to follow along and read whatever good i find every day, and share yours too (only if you'd like to, of course. you can always just stick to our space if you wish). 🤍🤍
anyone else reading this is welcome to share their good moments as well, i'd love to hear them. wishing you all the best. 💙
oh no, i've missed way too many days again. i thought i'd finally write it all down tonight, but doesn't look like it'll happen at this point because i have a lot of work to do and i need to sleep too. so let's hope i can do this tomorrow. i'm so sorry.
yeah, i've missed so many days again. but right now i'm gonna go ahead and try to catch up. honestly though, i've got to be consistent with this or else it become a real task to catch up, with the additional disadvantage that i don't remember all my good moments.
sunday (6th oct): so i remember one good moment that happened after i posted that night. so i was up late doing homework and i happened to come on cups once to see something really beautiful that made me smile.
monday (7th oct): i remember the history teacher was in a pretty good, jokey mood so the class was partly fun (not totally fun because we got a project to do). she also told us a story from her childhood, describing some really beautiful scenery and it was lovely imagining those things and what her childhood might have been like.
and the physics teacher decided to skip teaching for once. she normally teaches no matter now few students are present in class, so she will teacher even if only 16 out of 40 students are present. but that day, there were 23 in class and she still just us have a free period. good because i was in a lot of pain and couldn't have paid attention if she taught anyways.
also, coming home and washing my hair that day was good. i had been feeling really awful for most of that day and had been in a lot of pain, and i felt better after the shower. also, it woke me up because i was running on 3 hours of sleep and had been half asleep all day.
i also rewatched the movie i had watched on 5th oct because whenever my mother and i watch a movie on youtube, we always watch it 2-3 times weather we like it or not. i actually loved watching it the second time because it gave me a better understanding of the story and i could also laugh a fair bit.
also, i went to bed really early monday night. i don't remember the exact time, but i think it was 11:10 pm or something close to it (definitely before 11:14 pm) and i felt really good about it.
tuesday (8th oct): sooo lemme think, because i don't really remember much. hmm so i was mostly a day when i felt really overwhelmed and tense all day and i don't remember more than just one good moment.
so during our annual day dance practice, i had another 9th grader from my dance sitting next to me and doing her maths homework in school. she wasn't able to solve lots of things that i had been able to solve, and she needed lots of rough work for the smallest of calculations, like dividing a 3 digit number by 2. she asked for help from me for some stuff, and i was actually able to help because her condition in maths is worse than my own. the reason i call this a good moment is because i used to think that everybody who studies seriously is better than me in maths and nobody could be worse than me in it if they study. but i was wrong. this person studies and her condition is quite bad too. so i feel a little less alone in being bad at maths, and that's good.
wednesday (9th oct): some things my friend in school told me that day were really good to hear. other than that, i don't remember much from school expect the interactions i had with two bengali teachers - my 7th grade english teacher and my 4th grade evs (environmental studies) teacher. i actually had gone to wish the english teacher a happy durga puja (wednesday was the first day of durga puja) and seeing here was good, though she was really busy. and the evs teacher, i happened to meet her in the corridor just as a coincidence. and i wished her and it was a lovely little convo as she asked me where we go to see the puja and stuff.
i wore a new pair of pyjamas. and it was nice. the fittings aren't great, but i think the colour looks good on me. the fabric is also pretty nice and soft. i know i'll love wearing this when summer comes, because it's light coloured too.
i remember my mother asked me if i'm staying home from school on thursday or friday, because she thought i really had to skip school on either one of these days. when i asked her why, she said that "you're not going to school every day during durga puja! anyway nothing much happens in school. stay home one day to relax and have fun." i can't explain how much i loved hearing that from her. i mean, my mother's encouraging me to skip school, how lovely is that?
i went out in the evening with my father to buy sweets and some stationery. it was kinda cool outside and it was nice. plus, i almost always like going out late in the evening.
thursday (10th oct): i skipped school that day and it was quite a good thing to take a bit of a break from school. i remember that i got started with homework early in the day, about 10:25 am i believe, and that's a lot earlier than usual. i'm really glad i did a bit in the morning before the bad things of the day started happening, because i remember not doing much in the afternoon and evening.
i also showered earlier than usual, and i exercised properly for the first time in a while. it all felt good. also, my mother was in a pretty good mood during lunch and that was nice. we joked about a lot of things. and my mother loved one of my jokes. i'm really glad i could make her laugh.
i also got to stay at home alone for a bit, and i really loved it. i love staying home alone for bits.
my mother and i had gone to see the durga puja somewhere, and it was nowhere near fun, but one good thing did happen. you know, we also have navratri right now, though my family doesn't celebrate it. and during this time, every day, you're supposed to wear a specific colour of clothes. because we don't celebrate it in my family, we only find out what colour it is today when we observe others. so while we were coming back home after seeing the durga puja, based on our observations, we concluded that it was pink day. and i just so happened to be wearing a pink top then. what a funny coincidence! lol.
at night, i put on a new pair of pyjamas and i really love this one. the colour, the fittings, everything. it felt good.
friday (11th oct): we got a lot of free periods in school so i was able to complete some of my incomplete work as well as my missed schoolwork from thursday. that was pretty good. also, my friend and i were happy to get some time to talk freely during because our uninvited guest didn't arrive like she usually does.
we went to see the durga puja somewhere a little far away. the idol was beautifully made and the place was well decorated, and i liked it though it was awfully crowded. i also happened to see a teacher there, certainly not one i like, but i saw her, smiled and wished her a good evening. it was somehow kinda nice, though she didn't recognise me. also, my mother participated in a shankha blowing competition there and she only got to about 10 seconds when many got to more than her, but it was nice anyways.
also, as soon as we got in there, it started raining so when we came out, we all got wet. we waited for a while for the rain to stop for us to go home, but then it looked like it would never stop so we came home by two wheeler all getting wet. i was luckily wearing my jacket so i was sort of protected from the rain. so for me, it was quite fun, mainly beacuse i didn't get too wet. it was quite cold though. also, coming home and washing my feet with warm water was great, because my feet were really cold from having wet socks on.
today (12th oct): my good moment for today would be seeing my all time favourite teacher where we went to see the durga puja today. i was feeling horrible about going there, but seeing her at least made it worth something. i saw her, talked to her a bit, and saw her daughter too. it was unexpected and it was nice. it made me feel a little less horrible about having to do there today.
and i took a bit of a nap in the afternoon after we came home. i guess that's good? also, doing my cups work felt really good and helped my mood a lot. i really love helping out on cups. and i found out someone liked my work, and that was nice. and i'm glad i could catch up on writing good moments, though i didn't study today and it's also fairly late.
i have otherwise been struggling a lot today, so these are the only good moments i've got to share today.
@exuberantBlackberry9105
I like this good moments diary-like article structure that you wrote, Berry 🫐(っ˘ڡ˘ς), it helps us to feel grateful \(^-^)/
@VictoriaLove7 hehe, i'm not really supposed to be posting such long posts like this, i should be coming on every day and sharing that day's good moments in one short message. but i'm glad you liked how i wrote it and structured it this time.
or wait, did you mean to say that you liked the way i put the day and the date before writing down the moments?
I love seeing all the positivity here. I am very slowly going to be getting back onto 7 Cups. I finally have electricity and internet again. That is going to be what I am grateful for. @exuberantBlackberry9105
@bestVase7265 i'm so happy to hear that! i'm glad you have electricity and internet now. do you have a clean water supply though? because water's pretty important, right?
it's very good to hear from you by the way. it's okay if you need to come back to cups slowly, feel free to take your time. i just really want you to take care of yourself. ❤️
hey. so last night when i typed it all out, i missed one good moment from tuesday and one from friday and one from saturday.
so on tuesday i was feeling really overwhelmed all day and when i was finally able to calm down a bit, it felt good.
on friday, i liked having puris for lunch. i was pretty surprised to open my tiffin box and find puris in it. i get bored of having that same roti sabzi every day, so something different is good. i also laughed a bit with my friend in school.
and yesterday, while we were there to see the durga puja, i was able to take my mother's phone and photograph some pretty amazing plants.
now let's talk about today's good moments.
sunday (13th oct): so today in the morning when i cleaned up my room and showered, i felt pretty good somehow. then, going to see the durga puja visargan wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. it wasn't good, but it wasn't too bad.
some interactions i've had on cups today have been really nice and have helped me a lot in feeling better and getting through the day. and also doing some cups work felt great. i also saw something on youtube today that gave me an amazing sense of calm.
i stood out in the balcony for a bit at night and could see some stars and an aeroplane flying. it reminds me of a lot of things and makes me feel kinda good. and my mother made kheer today because you're supposed to have kheer on the last day of durga puja, and it was pretty nice.
i could hear someone from outside speaking in bengali as i sat in my room, and it just made me feel so weirdly excited because it's not something i really hear often.
i think that's all i have for today so far. not a very good day unfortunately, despite it being a sunday.
@exuberantBlackberry9105
Seeing airplane ✈ flying at night is awesome!
@VictoriaLove7 wow, i love that that you shared! is it one you've captured sometime recently? ✈️
@exuberantBlackberry9105
Nu nu ☺I googled the picture
@VictoriaLove7 i see. it's still lovely though!
@exuberantBlackberry9105
Thank you, Berry! 🫐(っ˘ڡ˘ς) જ⁀➣ ᯓ★⋆⭒˚✮⋆˙
You're doing an amazing thing just by reaching out and acknowledging your emotions.
Yes life has bad bits, but it also has amazing bits!
It's always great to share with others, both the good and the bad. No one's life is always happy.
It sounds like you're very wise for your years and that is an incredible strength!
Yes do your best to check in every day - we're all behind you!
@JanMad87 aww, thank you. yeah, i know life has its good and bad parts. i generally talk a lot about the bad while i'm on 7 cups because i don't get to share the bad with people in real life. but this is me typing to share the good too, on this thread.
it sounds like i'm very wise for my years?! can i ask what makes you say that? also, what do you mean by 'wise'?
yeah, i'm trying to come here and post daily but i've been missing a lot of days and then needing to catch up. hopefully, i'll get more consistent with this at some point, lol.
i realise that i haven't posted in a week now, and i'm sorry i can't do it today either. i've been having a rough time lately and thought i'd give up on doing this. although today has been better, and i realise that this is one thing i can't give up on, i've had a fairly busy day and i'm really sleepy right now, so i'll go to bed. i promise that some day i will catch up on posting my good moments. hopefully tomorrow but in case i choose to focus on homework tomorrow, i'll do it on tuesday.
so i haven't posted any good moments in two entire weeks. i don't know were two weeks went but here i am now. and i'm not sure if i can actually even try to remember good moments from two weeks ago. i have great memory for bad things that hurt me but i remember the good only for a little while. also, it's been two weeks since i last posted so now even if i try to write the good moments, i'll get the days all muddled up.
so to whoever's reading this, can i just skip a few days and write whatever i remember? or should i try my hardest to recall good moments from every single day?
@exuberantBlackberry9105 write what feels right to you :) Maybe more good memories will popup while writing the ones you do remember<3
@BlueDarkAurora sure, i'll get to this in the morning. i really need to sleep now.
Today I got a lot of much needed rest! What was something good about your day?
Just worry about a single day. No need to go backwards. More than 24 hours is too tough. You don't need that kind of pressure.
hmm i think at this point i haven't shared any good moments in 3 entire weeks. this is bad. really very bad. there's no way i can catch up at this point, and that would be too much unnecessary pressure on myself too, so i won't do that. i'll just start from the 1st of november and write what i remember in these past few days. forgive me for not posting any good moments from 14th to 31st october, i'm sorry i got so lazy about it. hopefully this doesn't happen again and i can say on track with posting good moments hehe.
friday (1st nov): i remember this day to be a really hard one and i had been feeling absolutely horrible and was dealing with bad thoughts that are hard to live with. but i'll still try and find a few good moments i guess.
so when i was home alone for a bit i somehow was feeling awful though normally being alone makes me start to feel good. but i did come to a point when i felt good for a bit, though it lasted only a few minutes before my parents came back and so did all the horrible emotions.
at some point i watched that one short film that i love that i've watched countless times in the last few months and it always makes me cry every time i watch it even though i know what's gonna happen next and i've almost memories every dialogue by now. just the way it's said and shown is beautiful and always makes me cry and usually feel a little better in the end.
i was in my room feeling my worst and crying, and i had completely made up my mind to give up on this life, when my mother came and asked me to get ready to visit our landlady (who lives a 2 minute walking distance away) and wish her a happy diwali. i felt so mad about it then but i had no choice but to get ready and go, as much as i wanted to stay in my room. looking back at it now, going out actually helped me a lot with my thoughts.
when we got there, i saw our landlady for the first time and was impressed by how young she looks at 81. found out she has a dog and it was tied but barking so loud and scared the life out of me but eventually, it sat down quietly and i could calm down. the landlady was nice and my parents talked to her while i remained the quiet listener (i'm glad i didn't have to speak). she seemed to love sharing stories and shared so many of them about how the place where we live once was, and also about some incidents as a maths professor.
there was even some discussion about our education system and how the standard of both students and teachers has really declined now, how a gradual decline became a sudden, very obvious one after the pandemic. it was really interesting to hear all that she had to say. and my mind got busy with that and it was a great distraction from my thoughts.
also, she had cats in her house, so many cats. i saw three of them and they were really cute. i wish i could've brought one of them home, because she doesn't really want them and i long to have a cat. but i'll have to wait for several years...
and i helped around cups a bit and it felt really good. it made me feel a lot better.
saturday (2nd nov): almost all of my yesterday was spent outside. around noon, we left for a nearby temple because there was some annakut puja that we had to see. i didn't want to go there and thought it would be really bad but it wasn't that bad, so that's one good thing, when things don't go as bad as you think they will. we also had bhoj over there, which was our lunch, and the good part is that we got to sit at a table and eat and the food not too bad. also, i got away with not being able to eat it all.
we then left to visit some of my parent's old friends who live where we used to live till 2021. in the first family we visited, they have a son who's in 8th grade, and we both talked while my parents talked to the parents there. it was fun talking to someone that i once used to play with with i was younger (we were next-door neighbours). the time actually went well and he had a lot of stuff to share and i listened and said some bits and it was good. he showed me how all he studied and it was certainly interesting. and i heard some funny stories from him as well as his mother who's good friends with my mother. also, their house was beautifully decorated yet in a simple manner. i loved it. the view from the window was nice too and i got to peek into our apartment which we no longer own, the place i called home for 10 years of my childhood.
the next family we went to was that of a different one of my mother's friends, who has a daughter in 10th grade. i was sent to talk to her and it wasn't good (she says stuff in what feels like to me a very boring way) but i was able to make the time go by. one good thing is that i was in her school till when i was in 3rd grade but i'm glad i'm not there anymore and am in a different, much better school. she told me about a lot of stuff in her school and i was horrified. i'm happy that i don't go to that school anymore. not that i like my current school, but it's better than many others and i was taking it for granted but now that i've heard details of the condition in other schools, i won't anymore. and her mother offered us dinner and she cooks really well and though hunger was a non-existent entity for me, i still managed to eat something and not take hours to do so because the food was really tasty and spicy, which i like.
we left for home at 10:45 pm and car rides at night are really nice for me. also i found out that our maid would take a leave on 3rd nov, so i could sleep in a bit.
sunday (3rd nov): i woke up at 8:40 am, 40 whole minutes later than my usual for holiday and weekend mornings. it's so good to be able to wake up late, i'm glad my mother let me go that.
my father was fixing some stuff in my bathroom today morning and he asked me, "why don't you scrub the floor properly? it's so stained." i told him "i can't clean the stains it no matter how hard i try, why don't you do it?" i expected him to just say something and ask me to do it, but he actually did clean up those stains for me. and my bathroom floor has never looked so clean and smooth before. i'm so glad he did that. he also fixed around a bunch of other things in my room and bathroom.
even though i was in a not-so-silent environment today morning with my father working in my room and bathroom, i was able to get started on my homework early enough. i'm really glad that i could do it. also, another great moment about today is that all the homework that i planned to do today, i was able to get it all done! even though i didn't start super duper early or anything. this hardly ever happens, to be honest. i feel good having been able to get that done today, also the work was easier than i thought it's be. hopefully this all repeats itself tomorrow lol. if i'm able to do this every day, i should be able to get most of my work done by thursday.
i think the main reason i was able to get my work done is that i was able to stay away from cups for most of my morning and afternoon and could use it to do my schoolwork, and fined all that i planned to do before 10:15 pm. it's not uncommon for me to start schoolwork at 10:15 pm, lol. yes, because i put my schoolwork first i couldn't finish some cups things i wanted to, but i think it's okay.
another good thing, despite the fact that my parents and i have all been home today, things have been more or less alright and no major yelling and stuff. i think it has been a pretty good day today in terms of the things that have happened, though i haven't really been feeling very well.
i was also able to spend a little time in the balcony today and take come photos. and i also exercised a bit today which felt good.
when my mother came to teach me, i could ask her to help me with some sums first and she agreed so i was able to get some stuff done quickly before she moved on to explain me some physics which actually went fine though i don't like physics. so far so good and i seem to understand things. that's a good thing.
and my final good moment, being able to finally write all of this. though it's pretty late at night and i should be sleeping, i feel good getting this gone, finally. it took longer than i expected probably because i've lot the habit of writing good moments daily. hoping to get back to it soon.
I can't tell you how wonderful all of that sounded. You were really able to reframe everything and find stuff to be truly grateful for. What a great job!
I especially liked all of the interesting conversations that you had away from home. They help anything that happens at home feel a little easier.
And you got homework done by waiting on Cups! I am so excited for you. You also came to this spot first to talk about the good! You are retraining your brain. I can't promise tomorrow will be a good one but if you keep at it the bad stuff will take over your brain less often. @exuberantBlackberry9105
one good moment from saturday i forgot to mention is that we also visited the family who lived exactly upstairs of our apartment. they have a cute little daughter who is now in 2nd grade. but when i used to see her everyday from our balcony (one of their windows was above our balcony and she would stand at that window and talk a lot) she was so little and fun and aww all the wonderful things she said. how much she has grown up and how tall she is but she's still super sweet though she doesn't remember me or my parents. it was good seeing her and talking to her. i adore little kids, they are so nice (only the well behaved ones, lol). i miss seeing her a lot. she also used to love talking to my parents from her window and showing us all her toys and she'd even bang on the window (if it was closed and she couldnt open it herself) to grab our attention and then talk and make us smile. i remembered it all when i saw her. it was lovely.
I love the fact that little kids make you smile. @exuberantBlackberry9105
monday (nov 4th): yesterday was such a good day, so today was unsurprisingly bad, from the very beginning. but here's the good that i've got.
i read something lovely on cups today morning and it really made me feel good.
i had this huge overwhelming task to do today that was to clear up the home computer because i used the be the one using it during the pandemic and i saved a lot of files on it and my father wants to use it now but it's too slow because it has so much stored on it so he needs me to clear up storage. so i was to take everything on my pen drive. i dreaded it so much and oh my god that computer was so slow and the mouse won't work properly so i had to do everything using the keyboard and only right click with the mouse because the left click button won't work. the good part is that i was still able to take about 400 files onto my pen drive and have just a few left to do tomorrow.
my shower today was quite good as i washed my hair today. and my hair feels good after washing it. it's pretty smooth and silky and straight, not all bent in different directions (that can be quite a problem for me and i hate it).
i have been horribly tired and sleepy all day today but for a tiny bit in the evening, i felt awake and they was nice. i also got my cups work done and that was good too and it's something i really enjoy doing.
that's all for today, i'll get some sleep now and hopefully tomorrow goes better and i can get my schoolwork done.
So you did accomplish something good - it may have been tedious but you did it! And hair washing is always relaxing. @exuberantBlackberry9105
@bestVase7265 yup! by the way i forgot to mention one good moment from yesterday.
a beautiful little bird that looked like a hummingbird sat on my blanket that was out in the balcony drying on the clothesline. it was so cool and my mother and i both saw it and smiled. my blanket has a floral pattern so i guess the bird got confused and came to check? i dunno but it was fun to watch.
Bird watching is one of my favorites. @exuberantBlackberry9105