@Rising265
I don't get assistance from friends or family; I found it elsewhere. I am on meds for anxiety & depression and I see a therapist every other week. It wasn't always that easy. When I fell apart after September 11th, I had only recently given up drinking. (I was being considered for the U.S. drinking team for the Olympics.) I abused alcohol for many years. Be for that, it was opiates.
I was unable to function and I practically had to beg to be treated as an outpatient. I was worried about what my in-laws would say or think. I now realize that was foolish because they had already decided what they were going to think and honestly I don't give a damn.
Part of my 'arrangement' with the hospital was to go on meds, stay off anything that might be addictive (that includes regular consumption of coffee or anything like that), seeing a Psychiatrist for two 1-hour sessions / week, journaling every day and finding 'something' productive to fill my day.
I have been a Buddhist for most of my life so I began going for three 1-hour classes / week and meditating at least two 1-hour sessions (not at the very start obviously) per day.
I'm working now. I see a therapist every other week and am still on meds. I do need to meditate more often.
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It's so easy; anyone can do it!
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It was, and remains to be quite difficult. One of the things that I had a tough time internalizing was that the only thing that was in common with all of my problems was me. I am the only one responsible for my actions and the reactions of others. Buddhism isn't always a mirror you want to look at-- you're the only one there.
I am so pleased that I came across your thread. It is worth the hard effort. If you need assistance, look for it. That's not a sign of weakness, but of strength.
Be strong.