Maybe I am selfish
Maybe i am selfish for wanting a life where i wanted to live not survive
Maybe i was selfish to feel atleast a tiny bit of happiness in my daily life
Maybe i was selfish for wanting to recover from all the trauma
It's not a maybe. I am selfish and it led me to destruction.
I never knew my actions would lead me to even more pain. I thought i was finally getting better. I really thought. Thoughts don't have value right. They're all in your mind.
All in my mind.
I started feeling a bit hopeful and that's where it all ended. I'm not meant to feel happy. I'm just meant to be sad all day, all year, all my life.
I did not mean to do what i did but i really wished it worked. Because maybe then i would have finally felt peace.
I'm tired now. Tired of life. Tired of people, tired of everything.
I am selfish. Completely selfish.