i guess im just letting things out
i currently live with my parents, and theyre both physically and mentally abusive. Growing up with emotionally immature parents who dont really care about your emotional well being and always fought inappropriately in front of you. as well as taking out their anger on you when you did nothing wrong, that is something that i still have to deal with today. i have a lot of anxiety, and i cant seem to let my guard down to do things i truly want. Obviously i want to leave my parents and live my own life, but i dont have the money yet. I havent experienced strong friendships, relationships, havent even held a persons hand. my feelings and thoughts dont matter to anyone. Comparing my life to others lives constantly, knowing that their life could be hard as well behind the screens. But they always seem so easygoing compared to me. I literally dont have someone to support me when Im falling deep into my anxiety or into depression. Im so mad at the world right now because im alone and confused with my future as well, and the path that im taking. I dont know if I ll ever be able to find happiness and live for myself. Thats my biggest fear right now.
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such difficult times.
*Sending hugs* 💛
I may not have a solution to your problems but I want to tell you that you're seen and heard. You deserve kindness. You matter. Your feelings matter too. Just because someone doesn't see them, doesn't mean they don't.
*Holds your hands* You're not alone.
It's understandable that it might be difficult for you to get out of the place. Have you ever tried to receive legal help? Or their might be some scholarships or financial aids that might help you to get out of there?
I believe in you. I hope you never give up on yourself and get through this situation. We all are here if you ever want to talk about it. 🌸
You deserve the kindness and everything beautiful. Don't ever lose hope. There's a world outside of this and I hope you find it someday.
@fairmindedShade219
Dear Shade,
I grew up in a terrible situation, too. My parents abused me mentally, and didn't care what happened to me. They never offered help and I needed it greatly.
How soon can you see yourself moving out of their house?
If you live near a big city in the USA, they offer almost free mental health services. Look up community mental health. It might even be offered online. I don't know. I go to community mental health services where I live. The price varies based on your income. I've paid as little as $3 per visit. You need support.
Have you tried the sharing circles on 7cups? They helped me loads. You can talk about anything you want.
Lastly, I have a quote for you. "Life is full of suffering. It's also full of overcoming." --Helen Keller
May God bless you.
--tree