idk what to say tbh . I'm not good.
@YourCaringConfidant
Hey, how are you doing buddy? This is kind of a check in but mostly just some space for me and you since our friendship had grown. Lmao. ❤️❤️
To be honest it's hard to talk to any listener and yk I can't even cope. I don't even like venting on anyone. Just feeling really lonely to be honest. Sitting in the darkest of days recently. Things went downhill recently .... Last week was terrible. The week before that was a good week. Lmao. Anyways.. hope your okay.
I just want you to know that I care about you and your PAT posts are beautiful!
Bunny 🐇
As I slowly drift apart, my friendships leave paintings behind me yet they linger in the darkness. Turning back is painful. But going forward I walk towards a living disaster. And all that's left is me and you . And us. And even though we forget , even though we love, even though we care, even though we hate it all sneeks up inside of us and haunts us till the very end. Friendships don't last forever. They last a lifetime. You can forget people's words and actions but you will never forget how they made you feel. I will never forget the comfort and joy you gave me even after I leave. ♥️ Thank you. For everything you do. You mean the world to me.
Bunny
@YourCaringConfidant
How you doing buddy? Missed you for a while 😭 your presence has disappeared ever since I drifted away from pat ♥️ lol. I forgot everything for a while. *Hugs if okay*
@amiableBunny4016 I miss you being apart of PAT. I miss seeing all your beautiful postings and graphics. I miss the kindness and love you show. You are such a beautiful, amazing person. Awww, I miss you Bunny. Desiree is here. ♡ I've cut back drastically on my postings for PAT but the fact I ventured off and do other volunteer work has contributed to that. With that, I get to be more hands off creating pretty stuff. Either way, I am here and you can come to our thread anytime you need to talk. I hope you are being kind to yourself, Bunny. You are so special. ♡
@amiableBunny4016
This message is in hopes you see this. I always try and respect people and give them their space--- let them reach out to me if and when they are ready... However, it seems like forever since I have seen you on the forums and I just need to know if you are ok. If you are ok, please just let me or someone know you are. Please be ok, Bunny. I sure hope you are. I miss our chats through the forums and reading all your beautiful words. I miss you spreading love and kindness around. I don't know what you go through but I know sometimes we feel alone... sometimes we may feel we have no one and that no one really cares. I am here to tell you that you have people who love you, care about you, and worry about your safety. I just want to know you are ok. Sending hugs your way to the sweetest Bunny I know. <3
@YourCaringConfidant
Uh huh . I assume you read my other forum. Well.. bunny is dead for all bunny knows. Bunny is in that space between existing and not existing. I'm fine Desiree. Honestly. The answer is always the same from me. And even tho I'm alone and I'm scared and I'm sad it won't matter at the end. At least I won't take it to my grave. The only thing that will matter is nothing. 😅we just live in a self hating trap. And you can either constantly drown in trauma or you can just try to keep your head above the water. This trauma eats us till the end. What can I say? If I say I'm alone and I'm scared and im unloved and unheard and unseen. People tell me the exact opposite. This world is just crazy. I'm tired. Exhausted. Taking a breath is too hard. The moment I breathe it hurts more. You know.. I grew up in moments. Not years. The moment they used to hit me and beat me was the time I realised I was alone and I had to fight by myself because no one else is on my side. The moment life felt like *** I learnt I had to just grow up and get over it. The moment I ended up in the place I am. A hospital. Half dead. I learnt that I don't need to grow up anymore. This is probably the end of me. 😅But anyways, this is why I quit all my roles. Because i was digging this hole and falling into it. To be honest, I have nothing left of me. All my kindness and soft hearted attitude had disappeared weeks ago. I feel like a stone. A robot. No emotions. And at the end it just doesn't matter because it will probably kill me.
The only thing I will ever do is she'd tears and dry them . And watch myself living in self destruction and disaster.
@YourCaringConfidant
Truth be told my inactivity in forums was because my account was deactivated 😀which was .. not nice. But for all I know.. I don't even understand why till now. I was planning to never come back ever again. But 😜❤️😀😮 my mind plays games with me.
@amiableBunny4016 Well I'm so glad you're back. It's so good hearing from you. Never forget how strong and wonderful of a person you are, Bunny. It's been fun but almost 4a here, so I've really got to get my sleep. Don't be a stranger. ♡
@YourCaringConfidant
Hey Desiree,
Been a long time my friend ❤️ I have missed your presence and was thinking about you recently ❤️ I hope your having lots of fun and hope life is going okay ❤️ I haven't forgotten how amazing you are ❤️ thank you for all you do. ❤️ *Hugs if okay* wishing you lots of smiles and happiness ❤️ honestly sometimes it feels like I haven't talked to you In forever. How are you doinggg? ❤️ 🤪😜
@amiableBunny4016 It surely does seem like that. Hiii my sweet Bunny. I am on a self care break... finally! Lol. I hope all is well with you. Please know no matter what length of time passes that there's a place in my ♡ for the sweetest Bunny around. It's good to hear from you. I hope you are ok and well. I just seen a post of kind words for those experiencing grief and I immediately thought there goes that Bunny I know. The one who uplifts others with her beautiful words. ♡ Sending hugs your way. Xoxo. 🤗
@YourCaringConfidant
Awww! Self care breaks are awesome. ❤️ Desiree deserves time to look after herself ❤️ I'm proud of youuu! ❤️ I'm okie thank youu awesome humannnnn! ✨ hehe! *Sends cookies and hugs your way* 🍪🍪🤗🤗🤗oh damn.. you already read that post! Wohoo! There Desiree goes! ❤️ thank you so much Desiree!
@YourCaringConfidant
Heyo,
Is Desiree okay? Bunny and Desiree long time no talk. And bunny like saying hi to people every once in a while 💜 🙃 *sending hugs if okay*
Bunny
@amiableBunny4016 Awww, hi 🐰. I am doing fine, thanks. How are you? Congratulations on your new forum supporter role! You're amazing, Bunny-- never forget it! I will be right here whenever you reach out. Hugs!
@YourCaringConfidant
Desireeeeeeeeeee ❤️ aw man, your so sweeettttt. Thank you soo muchhhh! I'm enjoying my new roleeeee and feeling a tiny bit relaxeddd. Things have been up and down since coming back from home after hospital 💜 but we keep goinggggg. I'm so glad your doing okayyy ❤️ *hugs*
@amiableBunny4016 Yes, Bunny keeps going but she is strong. She is wonderful. She is victorious. <3
@YourCaringConfidant
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@YourCaringConfidant
There was a point in life where I thought I had lost all the strength in the world to keep going. 💜 thank you for being a constant reminder that I am strong! It has made all the difference in the world for me! ❤️
@amiableBunny4016 Awwww Bunny, never lose that flame within you. You are so special. I care about you and want all the best for you in life. :)
@YourCaringConfidant
You were in my thoughts recently. Been sitting in some dark days in the past week or so.. but hey.. at least I made it. ❤️ I hope things going okay. (: *Sending you lots of love and hugs if okay*
@YourCaringConfidant
Awww bunny is so cute 🥺 that's so pretty. ❤️🥺 thank you for making me feel a little bit better
@amiableBunny4016 Of course, no worries. I'm glad I could cheer you up a bit. You are so special. This is our little space so you can always come here if you need. ♡
@YourCaringConfidant
Well, i dont know how long this *** will last but I love you okay ? be safe. dont let anything take you down💛
@amiableBunny4016
Made this for you using text to image. Hope you like it. ♡
@amiableBunny4016 Just because.... ♡ Hugs, my sweetest Bunny friend.
@YourCaringConfidant
heyyy! Desireeeee 💛 you were in my thoughts recently and now you appeard :o aww this is so sweet. thank you for the beautiful graphic. i love the bunny its so cuteee💜 you are the best. Thank *you* for being your wonderful, sweet self and always giving me special reminders! it means so much to me 💛 i really needed this. 💜 hope your taking care of yourself <3 *sends hugs your way*
@YourCaringConfidant
This is so random! But hi! It's me again 😭 was thinking about you and when we were on the same team together spreading smiles 😅 and then the nostalgia hit 💜 your awesome and I hope your doing well and taking care of yourself Desiree! 💙 *Sending comfy cushions and hugs your way* 🍫💜💜💜
@amiableBunny4016 I came here to write you then I seen this and have no idea why I didn't see it. Please forgive me for such a delayed response. I miss you too my sweet Bunny friend and all our forum interactions being teammates. ♡ Ahhh. But guess what, Bunny? Fristo came up with a new initiative called kindness crusaders and I joined as part of that team. Check that out! You never know. 🙃😉 Anyway, hope to hear from you. Hugs! Xoxo.
@YourCaringConfidant
bleep. hello. well to be honest, i forgot about 7cups anyways. no need to apologise my friend 😀 life has certain phases and i have just hit that phase of just coping with it alone. i had a look at the kindness crusador and may have a little think about it (due to exams and stuff hehe) 💛 thank you for sharing! *sending hugs if okie* how is Desiree?
@amiableBunny4016 It's perfectly understandable. You are so right about life and going through phases. I've chosen to stay on an extended self care break. At the end of the day, you know what's best for you. Wishing you all the best with your studies and exams!