breaking point....

lonlieness hits so hard.... 

i tried so hard to put on a show, or to make sure i seem like this confident, funny, happy, know it all, smiley, weird person, tried to please everyone else. and now, i sit here alone with no one to see me or hear me and as much as i can be around people, it feels like its just me. just me in the middle of this whirlwind wondering wheather if i will ever belong.. and the more i come to realise it, the more i pull myself further down this endless trap.

who even am i? why do i try so *** hard when i get nothing but pain and agony out of all of it?

i just want to go home, but there is no more place to call home. not even the walls of this building. 

i want a family but there is no people to call my family. not even on the internet.

i want to be loved.... but its just me.

idk.... i just... can't take it all anymore. i've hit the breaking point.

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