Young but old
Everyone believes or say "Time goes by so fast, one time we were a kid and another we become old nearing our deaths" but I just never relate to this. Although I'm young, I feel Soo old, time is going so slow over here. I feel exactly like an old person nearing their death, but I'm just in my late teens. I don't know what something went wrong, I just hope one day, life will feels normal for me too. That being said, I never had the regret of learning something too late, rather I learnt a lot too early, I never had a meaningful conversation with anybody around my age. It's always people older than me with at least a 6 years age gap and further. And when anyone ask me about my future goals, it's as if I'm already in the future, I don't see any future, my mind would went blank as if that part of the script was omitted. I'm not excited about the future, or looking forward to or eager. I'm just here. Just in 19 years of living, it feels as if I've lived thru from a toddler to a 60 years old tho I'm the type that believes there's more to come, but my head is already fully stuffed. Someone tell me they're the same pls, I can't be alone lol
@SOFFY9
You are not alone...
when we are young and hang out or becomes friends with older people we get a different level of maturity or thought ......sometimes making connecting with our age peers awkward.
We feel somehow lost in the middle. Many find this as both good and bad. Good as we feel like we see things others might miss.... the other side is we feel alone with people waiting for them to catch up to something we already saw.
I am sorry you feel like there is no future it is there just harder to imagine like seeing a movie and already knowing the plot twist..... takes some fun out of the big reveal moment.
You're not alone here, I hope you find direction in your life. Start by thinking about your wants first, being with people older then you can sway how you feel about yourself. I hope things get better.
