Why try
Why the *** should I even try anymore? I feel like anytime I go into SR one thing or another happens. I feel like I don’t matter to anyone in life. When did “I feel” turn into being so subjective about what someone does in order to keep cups working? I know how much work goes into modding a *** room, but that doesn’t change how neglected I feel. How hurt I am. I won’t forget trying to do something right while someone is going something wrong and getting warned. It hurt so *** much. But that’s alright because it seems everyone in life can hurt me.
I lost a good friend this week, today is the day my meme died, I had surgery Friday, I can barely pull myself to go to school, I just can’t do life anymore. So yes I am beyond upset now I am hurt I am more reactive, but isn’t that my right as human? Or is it not anymore maybe I should just got back to being numb at least then I couldn’t feel the pain I feel now. Maybe I would be better off in another world or something else one can put their minds to. And if that’s just it say so. Maybe I am useless. All I’ve been doing for days is calling myself an idiot and my teachers just laugh and agree. I’ve threaten to change my major so many times because of the way people treat me. I give up I just do. I’m told I will win the game but I never do.
@StormyRiver22 sits beside you and wraps you in a warm blanket, and hugs you tightly ❤ I'm so sorry you lost your meme😥 you got a lot going on right now, bless you 🙁 I understand that feeling when everything seems so bad, and you want to just run away, and curl up in a cave far from the world and just be🙁 I'm sorry your struggling so badly, but please don't give up, and remember we can't win all the games, but we can keep trying ❤ hugs you again ❤ I'm right here for you ❤
Hi there my dear. (Hugs you🫂). I can feel what you're going through right now and you're not doing anything wrong when you're telling how you're feeling. Everyone might seem to be pushing you down and it might seem difficult...but please don't give up my dear. It might seem that you are not winning...but that's not the case. Rather than viewing it as a museum of failure...look upon it as a gallery of trying and attempts. You are not useless. Great works in this world...were always initially ridiculed and opposed.
•The Wright brothers before the success of the airplane, were called crazy in the newspapers.
•Alexander Graham Bell, when he presented his telephone, they said take this toy off my table.
•Edison’s teachers said he was "too stupid to learn anything." He was fired from his first two jobs for lack of productivity.
•Jordan was cut from his high school basketball team because his coach thought he wasn’t good enough.
So don't loose hope. It may feel that- " Will things ever get right?...I don't have faith" but believe in yourself. Have faith in yourself. You are not worthless...You are a unique beautiful creation.
We're here for you...
Lots of love ♥️
@StormyRiver22 I’m so sorry friend. Going through all that pain can feel so hopeless and I hate that you feel that way right now always here if you wanna talk *big Huggies* if ok 💕💕💕
I get that self pity
questioning who rly cares
ppl should realize that we r trying our best every day given the struggles but injustice n being unfair just in favoritism of pthers
sadly exist n genuinely been hurt by ppl too
when im sick im alone gotta be strong on ur own
but whenever friends left me as well
they never returned
i know the hurt
how can u stop urself from this emotional trauma when it feels like we gave them all the satisfaction from pain already?
buddy
i dk you
but
trust me
when I say this:
i get u:(
@StormyRiver22
@StormyRiver22 I can also tell your plate is incredibly full and that it makes sense that you are feeling completely vulnerable and emotionally raw. When we are in a huge emotional and situational storm it can be incredibly difficult to see beyond all the chaos and confusion. Experiencing loss can bring up so many emotional experiences and is completely unpredictable. You deserve all the compassion and unconditional acceptance you can surround yourself with. Your value as a human being is so much more than your social experiences from other people who judge quickly without knowing your story. Thank you so much for reaching out and wanting to trust the community here in cups, though it has left you feeling rejected and hurt. It takes a lot to reach out when our interactions with people feel so unsupportive. Sometimes in the moment the best we can do is keep hanging on from minute to minute and be patient and loving to ourselves during overwhelming experiences. If might help to take a step back and just breath for a minute. I hope you are able to connect and get the human connection you are needing. Please keep reaching out, you are being an awesome advocate for yourself. Until we meet again be gentle and kind to yourself.
