Whats the point...

Im not going to tag anyone because i know no one will care...but if someone sees this please tell me whats the point me being on cups...like really...i have no one....no one ever reaches out to check on me to see if im ok...i keep being picked on in the rooms for being myself and i cant take it anymore....ever since i came to adult side of cups its been really bad for me...ive lost pretty much all my friends i made on teen side...i dont know what to do anymore...i honestly dont even know what friends are anymore because like people say they will stay and talk to me but they never do stay they always just walk out of my life.....ive nearly started to lock myself away and not open up to anyone at this point because i feel like i would just get judged or picked on for not being ok or something....i dont know what to do anymore....so really whats the point me being on cups....