Waves of pain + numbness
I’ve lost all my friends, enddd my relationship a few hours ago with a man I used to refer to as my husband (not even engaged, I just wanted to spend my forever with him) and I’ve also lost like half of my family because they do juju stuff and act so sus and I’d rather not be involved anymore and I’m also still processing the SA case that happened to me a year ago and i’m trying to find a new job and everything is just too much.
I get waves of absolute rage and then overwhelming feelings of sadness and pain before I eventually settle into a somewhat blissful period of numbness and I’m trying so hard to focus on myself and block out all noice but instead I end up paralysed and rotting in bed, smoking 🍃 to try and cope with everything going on and move on but I just can’t
I can’t trust anyone
@starrydaze I'm really sorry you're going through all of this, and it sounds like so much has piled up at once—losing people you cared about, dealing with unresolved pain, and trying to find your way through everything. It’s understandable that you're feeling such intense emotions right now, from anger to sadness to numbness. Sometimes, when everything feels overwhelming, it’s hard to know what to do or where to start, and it’s okay to feel stuck.
It’s good that you’re trying to focus on yourself, even if it doesn’t feel like progress right now. The fact that you’re aware of what you’re going through and reaching out shows you’re not just letting it consume you, even though it might feel that way sometimes. Please know this space is here for you, and you don’t have to carry all of this alone. Trust might be hard right now, but there are people here who genuinely care and are willing to listen when you’re ready. Take things at your own pace. Healing doesn’t have to look perfect 💛
@Mya000 you have no idea how much your words mean to me, I didn't realise just how much I needed to feel heard and validated and that alone has helped me to come out of that dark lil shell I retreated into and I cannot thank you enough for that. I still read your words every time I feel myself slipping back into that hole and it feels like someone has thrown me a life raft when I was sinking... thank you, truly 💛
@starrydaze Knowing that my words have been a source of comfort and light for you means more than I can express. I’m sending you so much love and support as you keep moving forward. 💛
@starrydaze what a World , i lived almost same exact situation this last month, i know how heavy it feels and it make it very hard to fucos on urself to heal but youu will its gonna take a bit of Time and i think WE should be okay with what WE feel rn but never give UP to it , Hope everything gonna be good for you