Need encouragement

I'm in a pretty tough situation right now.

I'l tired of always having my own back. How I wish someone was there by my side to help me. But I don't have this luxury. It's just so tough. 

And if I don't show up for myself, nobody will. 

I am sick and tired of trying, trying, with no results. 

I want things to get better for once. Why is that so many bad things have been happening to me. 

I can't help but feel like a victim. 

I am terrified my life will never get better. 

I tried to follow people's advice, do my best, be strong. 

But for now I'm just at a breaking point. 

I tried to ask for help anybody that I could. No results. 

What do you do in a situation like that? And please stop with the usual, you have to work harder, you don't want to get better hard enough. 

I've been through so many hard things and I feel that all my life energy got sucked out of me.

I truly don't know how things will get better for me