Is it being tired? Laziness?

What is this feeling when you just don't want to do nothing but the list of things to get done overwhelmed you to the point of crying. The thought of how you have to keep your feet running for that future. Without the willpower to do anything, the feeling as if I'm being forced to live because there's no other choice. When I gotta keep my feet on the ground to show I'm still that girl, to show that I'll meet their expectations, to show that their effort and investment in me will not go in vain, to show that I can do it, what they want me to, for my own future, but deep down that I don't want to do anything no more. It's either I ride on, (forcing myself) or I get out of here. I don't know how to get out of this situation, I don't the things that I want or the things that would make me happy. You might have imagined, there's this BTS person in my life, shaping my life uprightly, hoping for me the best future. But this individual (me) is not that enthusiastic about the future or anything. It's all a lie just to look normal and not disappoint my person. But I've been getting too tired or lazy lately... Whatever it's called