I’ll never forgive you

You’ve convinced everyone that what I did was out of petty revenge when really i was having a god damn breakdown. How you said me and one other person were in cahoots when I only had a god damn brief exchange with her becuz she went to me and the other 2 ppl who were involved at the time who’s names I CANT REMEMBER. And I apologized for it not knowing wtf I was being accused of but i assumed I did something wrong. How u would make fetishy comments about trans ppl during our relationship while u were drunk. Remember what u said, ***? “Do you wanna have a threesome with a f*ta”? How u would constantly ask permission to stop drinking and u said the only reason why you will stop drinking is becuz we’re in a relationship. How much you placed ur trauma onto me and said how badly u wanted to die. How I was dealing w my own dysphoria and making sure u weren’t doing smth stupid. How u were controlling just becuz u got weirdly mad at some guy who wanted to hangout and talk with us. Becuz u said he was “trying to make a move” on me when I told u I wouldn’t let him do that. But no, u couldn’t just have trusted me and instead threatened to become a problem. How u would have your drunken tantrums when u didn’t get things your way. How u would profusely apologize just for me to reassure u becuz u clearly can’t take accountability for ur own *** guilt. How u were so weirdly *** fixated with the Amber Heard & Johnny Depp case & I felt off abt it but thought I was overreacting.