Am I just overly emotional??
So, I think a lot. While I’m at work my thoughts are constantly filled with negative thoughts, and I’ll try to think positive and creative thoughts, or even try to think no thoughts at all, but I’ll forget and realize that I’ve just started thinking negatively again. Negative thoughts are mostly related to self hate, with the occasional intrusive thought lol.
It seems that over the last five years things have gotten better and worse in regards to my mental health. I’ll be happy for a week and think everything’s all better and that it was all in my head. Then after a little while the negative thoughts will creep back into my head. And I’ll feel that I bring more bad to the world than good. I’ll feel like everything is kinda pointless.
Anyway, the reason why I’m saying this: I know people that have it a lot harder, people who had loved ones that died, people who are in financial crisis, etc. And I know my problems aren’t that bad. I don’t have any reason to be depressed. But I still can’t help but feel horrible. And if I don’t have a reason to be depressed then what am I? Just really emotional or dramatics or negative? Sometimes I feel like it’s all in my head and that I’m just subconsciously making it all up for attention or something.