Struggles in life
I have major abandonment and trust issues from experiences I've beent through in life. Yet it seems like I'm always running from something. I always feel like I'm going to be alone whether I run or not. As for what I'm running from, I can't quite feel at home as I'd like to or feel that I deserve. I have a therapist but I still don't know how to cope enough with all I've gone through. Some people that haven't lived it, don't quite understand or know how difficult it can feel or be. If there are any relatable people out there who have dealt with similar struggles, I'd love to know how you cope if you don't mind sharing. I hope I'm not misusing this forum by posting this.
@glamn00dles Hey :) It's hard feeling like this. It's hard trusting people - especially if people you trusted hurt you. It's hard getting attached to people because there's allways that thought of - everyone leaves at the end anyway so why bother - right? Then if you do risk it enough to let them in - even if it's just alittle - they just end up proving you right anyway
Even with therapy - it's hard and it takes time. Some days you feel like you're doing great but then there might be a set back and that's ok. It's not really a straight path to get to where we want to be. There's detours and really lousy directions sometimes but even the smallest step forward is a victory. The best coping I can give is - be patient with yourself - it takes time to get to where you want to be and the right people will understand
Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts
I've been really sad for three days because my first boyfriend broke up with me. I really loved and cared for him a lot. We have dated for over a year and I miss him terribly and I find myself crying a lot. When he broke up with me he said that he wants to still be my best friend and be in my life. It's really hard because he was a really big part of my life and he was always there for me. Since the breakup was so recent I've been really sad and in shock that he broke up with me. It makes me really sad seeing my roommates and other people on my campus with their significant others because I miss him so much and it makes the process a lot harder on me. Before we started dating we were friends first then one day in 2019 we were hanging out and he asked me out and I will always remember that day and all the other fun times that we had together. Whenever I think about him he brings a smile to my face and I really hope that he will come back to me and that we will start dating again. I'm afraid that he will find another girl that's much more attractive than me and that he will love more than me. No matter what he will always be in my heart and I'll never stop loving him and wanting to protect him. <3