I wish I could tell everybody that...

i want a boyfriend. But am scared of talking to guys.

I'm tired of living in this world if I'm not ready to be in it. I've been depress for so many years and it feels like my life is falling into pieces every year.

I wish I could tell everyone that I'm not actyatky happy. That it's all a fake. I wish that they could understand me. I wish I could tell everyone the things that go on in my head, all the things that beat at me. All the pain I deal with.

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm not a bad person. That I'm not a compulsive liar. That I am a broken soul looking for an answer on this beautiful planet.

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm not a bad person. That I'm not a compulsive liar. That I am a broken soul looking for an answer on this beautiful planet.

I hate myself and how I treat the person I love. He is everything to me and I hurt him so much.

That I want to talk and have friends. That I suffer in my silence. That my life is painful without friend.

I'm gay.

I wish I could tell everybody that I am trying to live my dream. I am trying to do what is right. I wish they could understand that judging before results is wrong

I wish I could tell everyone, and not only tell but convince everyone that I am not my insecurities. And that it's not fair to judge me so harshly... some judge me for "living in sin," which I find unfair because it often feels God puts way too high of expectations on me. I wish they understood, and didn't sit on their high horse looking down on me. And others judge me for not being the best version of myself every day. Well.... I don't actually know if they judge me for that. I judge myself for that. I wish I could convince myself to stop being such a harsh critic.