I wish I could tell everybody that...
I wish I could tell everyone that I cannot love that I cannot handle their emotions. I care about others and not myself. I take on everyone's burden and end up ignoring mine. Through the lack of self development- I have lost myself & cannot find resolutions to my disaster of a life. Now, all around me are thriving due to my unconditional love and encouragement. By nature: im a highly sensitive person. My empathy involves the ability to read, understand and be in-tune with or resonate with others I connect too (strangers) and those I love deeply, This is involuntary & voluntary only when I feel a deep sense of intunement. During a conversation, I know what they are going through and how to bring resolution or provide exercises for anxiety relief & possible resolution. Honestly, I get so invested in each person I am close with that I can feel their deepest emotions. I am unaware of how my abilities actually works, & have long accepted that I am highly sensitive to others. I care for others more than myself. I thrive when serving others, but now..... I'm so lost. After being a caretaker for my grandma who passed - I lost myself in attempting to give her some type of quality of life: I failed her by having to assist in putting her in a nursing home after she fell at 91 yrs old. I cared for her so deeply that I lost myself and buried her memory so deep inside me... I hate that I cannot help myself as I can others.
That we all have a purpose. Maybe we can't all drive, didn't go to college, or aren't rich, maybe we don't look like models or aren't size 2 but we are all beautiful children of God. We all have something great going for us & we don't have to compare ourselves to others because we are who we are for a reason.
I'm really tired. I'm so sick of people using me and bashing me when they know nothing about me. Stop lying to me and stop stealing from me.just stop already.
@diligentBanana
thanks
I can't do this anymore. I can no longer be the person you want me to be. I need to allow myself to be me.
That im not as smart or as stupid as you think. That you dont really know me. Or maybe that you know me better than i know myself. And that this thought scares me on a daily basis.
I can't handle everything anymore its too much & everyone has too much expectations on me & I'm always helping everyone else but nobody can ever help me..everyone wants to talk and do to me what they want& nobody knows how much it hurts
@Sweethoneybee
You put it perfectly. I'm still waiting for someone else to do for me what I give them.
@Sweethoneybee maybe stop doing what you do for them, maybe they will realise it.
They Are worthy.
They are needed.
They are beautiful.
They are Special.
THEY MATTER!!!
Be your BEST FRIEND and love yourself. Forgive your self. Let go of the expectations of yourself -from others and from you. Do not be critical of yourselves because you are a beautiful unique piece of the giant puzzle called LIFE.
I so badly want everything to just stop. I want to just go away for a while. I which I could temporally disable my life because I need a break. Living is too much for me. Friends who don't care, boys and exs who don't care, school that's overwhelming, work and a placement. It's all too much. I just want it all to stop.
@sympatheticCup7928 give yourself break. Become a badass. It feels good to be a rebel sometimes. It gives peace. Stay cool
@Lostdesire I don't think any of that is going to help with the fact that I want to kill myself though. That's the thing. I want to go away, I just want to die. Everything is too much and overwhelming. I do a lot of stuff that is considered "rebellious" but that doesn't have any positive effects on me. Hardly anything in life does.
@sympatheticCup7928
I know it's very hard when all doing wrong is your imbalance of chemicals in your brain. Why don't you try to study as more as you can about your condition, it might keep you busy and would help you to understand why you feel this way. It will boost your confidence and you might know ways to handle your situation as well. Get yourself as more as you can to be informed about your condition. Even if certain diet changes might help no matter how slight or anything to make yourself feel better. Give yourself some chance and time. Things will definitely be better. Don't be overburdened about life. We all are just human beings. Forgive yourself, you deserve to be happy, don't punish yourself.
i wish i could tell everybody how much i love you
I wish I could tell everybody that they're beautiful and no matter what to never give up :) ❣️
