I wish I could tell everybody that...

I wish I could tell everybody that... I feel so lost. Like I don't have my own identity and I struggle to find out who I really am and who I am supposed to be. That I don't always want to feel like I have to please everyone but I cannot help it.

I feel alone and wish i could talk to someone about everything. I have friends and family but it would just make things worse and im not strong enough for that

I wish I could tell everybody that it is not that I don't like converse with others, it is just really hard for me to open up to people

I wish I could tell everyone about all the self arm... now I can't wear anything without sleeves because of all the fresh wounds on my shoulder...I wish I could tell them how I have already thought of multiple suicide plans, just not a time and place, and that I really do NEED help, but I'm too scared of going back to the behavioral hospital... I can't go back it was hell there and going the first time is what made me shut down and not want to talk to anyone anymore.

I wish I could tell everybody ...

That I'm not ok. I've been crying myself to sleep and crying when I wake up. I'm trying my best but I'm not as together as I've been pretending to be.

That ive never felt so alone as I do right now.

It's all going to be just fine - even though the answers aren't what I'm looking for.

I only speak up because I care. I only get mad because I see your hurting. I only shut down cuz there is nothing I can do to help.

That im still not ok

that i wish there was that one person who didn't care what i looked like or how i acted, that this one person could actually stay by me anytime, all the time no matter what