I wish I could tell everybody that...
That I was raped at 11 for 1 year by a pastor, my stepdad. Lied to my mom it wasn't happening. Went to live with my great grandmother and great uncle...stayed for 7 months and they died 2 days apart from each other, double funeral at 13. After that my Uncle took me, and pressed charges on the step dad, I stood trial as a 13 yr old girl and put him away for 17yrs. During the whole ordeal my mom wouldn't speak to me since I kinda ruined her life, neither did my sisters. So 2 yrs no mom no nothing. 15 got to come home. My mom loved me again yeahhh! But.... married a drunk and drug abuser and I moved yet again with friends this time at 16,..... graduated while with friends also had a baby in Oct at 18. My mom's path soon turned and at 20 I found myself motherless yet again but this time for good. She passed. Now I have me and 2 sisters to take care of at 20, 16 & 15 nothing was left for us. No house, no money, no close family to help. Tried college but still cannot pin point what I want to do. I have no close older relative to guide or give words of wisdom that actually really care about me. I'm trying so hard not to give up at 32. I wanna say all that to everyone because I put up such a positive front that no one really knows how hurt, damaged, and ready to give up I really am.
I'm sorry but I don't agree with them when they said that I had great potential.
I'm riddled with anxiety.
love sometimes occurs in strange circumstances you can't help
That I'm NOT happy on my birthday. I'm really sad and disappointed with myself. I don't think people even care about that.
coffee and I are soul mates!
I care too much, it gives me anxiety issues.
my heart is still broken and why. That their words hurt me, but I know they wouldn't say them if they knew.
I've spent years in therapy. I know all the "whys" I know the root of all my issues and I know the answers.
they bring me no comfort.
@mylifeaseva
I wiah I could tell everybody that I have serious mood swings,I doubt myself every single day, and that it's not their fault at all.
