I wish I could tell everybody that...

I wish I could tell everyone that I am scared of being alone and I'm tired of pretending that I can do everything right. I am tired to be so emotionless and I'm tired that I could never cry in front of anyone else and I'm just tired that I have to wait for everything. That no matter how good I am, I still won't get what other have right now.

And I wish I could tell people that I am tired being the one they know

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm not fine. That I AM NOT OKAY. I wish I could tell everyone that I'm just putting a brave face; but deep inside, I feel lost, I feel scared, I feel that I'm a big failure. I wish I could just easily say what's inside my head and what's going on in my heart. I wish I am strong enough to take care of myself and not be a burden with anyone. I wish I could tell my parents how sorry I am on every piece of sh*t that I put them through-- that I am very sorry for being a burden, for being weak. And I wish that I have the guts and confidence to tell and promise them that someday, I'l be the one who will take care of them-- because right now, I'm doubting myself whether I would be able to do that or not.

Those were just wishes, and I don't know if I'll be able to make those wishes come true.

That I have been in toxic relationships, that I don't love myself and that I keep letting other people make me feel like shit because I've been a victim of abuse when I was little, that that's the reason why I get angry so easily. It's not their fault, and it's not my fault either...

I am happy......

That I'm scared. That I feel like I'm not enough and I cannot live up to the challenges presented to me by life. That I'm not as strong as people may think, that I also need a shoulder to cry on, because right now I'm very lonely. I wish I could tell everyone that I'm not ready, and I'm sorry if I disappointed you.

I have a crush on a girl that's 4 years older than me and scares me to death, thinking about talking to her about it. It doesn't help that I'm addicted to pornography and can't quit for the life of me and don't know how to help myself.

I am sick of life. Why do I have to get the hard way, people think that all I want is suceess, it happens by default because you all keep throwing me crap so I need to make a mud house out of it.

#movingon #angry #fustrated #unfair #bitter

I wish I could tell everybody that my moms boyfriend rapped me when I was 10. I have hate men for most of all my life. I die everyday and wish when I sleep I wouldn't wake up. All my life I have lived with this and no one knows. They only know he molested me but they don't know he rapped me. That night he came into my room and told me if I didn't let him, he would make me watch him rap my sister. I wanna kill him til this day but I know that will do no good. My life has been upside down since that day. I tired telling my teachers and other adults but no one listened. My mom til this days says he was only trying to show me he loves me. I fucken hate her.. the one person that was suppose to protect me failed. I hate hate hate hate her. To forgive her is to say it never happend so I can't forgive her cuz it did happen.

I'm lonely and unprepared, despite them thinking I have a "good head on my shoulders." That I have all but given up being happy and that the sliver of hope is constantly what hurts me the most. It's not their fault for asking why I look unhappy, but it sucks when people close to me don't seem to acknowledge the real me at all. I wish they wouldn't presume so much. Makes it feel like I could just disappear..

That we're indeed all human. And that we tend to frequently forget what that means.