Need an honest answer
Answer only if you can be honest to your own self. I hate lies & manipulation.
Acc. to currently popular theory of Karma, if you do bad to someone ,bad will come back to haunt you..
if you do good then good will too
but if you do good to someone and end up receiving bad in return..
does it not mean it's your turn to do bad to them
so as to balance the system?
If you knew, people who did disastrous things to you.. but who still feel no regret or shame over it but instead try to blame you entirely for it and are quite successful in it due to their manipulation skills and number advantage..
And you knew if you taught each one of them a proper lesson.. they would remember it for the rest of their lives and everytime a person like you showed up they wouldn't dare to do the same things to that person as they did to you because they will remember the consequences it brought.. moreover everyone who would get to know abt it would also understand how their harmful actions can bring disaster to their ownselves in future.. and thus would fear doing anything wrong.. Would you still stop yourself and not teach em a lesson? would you allow coming generations to suffer the same pain you were subjected to? would you not allow things to get as ugly as they can for justice to be delivered to you as well as to those in the future?
@oneamongstyou285, I feel you. Sometimes I think to myself, I wish I could release myself. Show people what I really feel. What I think about what they say or do to me. THEN they would know. That person who kicks my foot everyday as I go into my seat in the bus? I feel like kicking him once, a very hard kick, so he doesn't do it again. Or the person who cuts me in the line to the grocery. Who gave YOU permission to do that, mister? But sometimes, I also look at those in a worse situation than me. The homeless man down the street I give a few cents a day to. The kid in school who is beaten everyday in the hallway. And so many others around the world, suffering.
Honest answer : I don't believe in karma. I believe in a different variation of it. If someone does bad to you, the UNIVERSE will give back the bad to that person, not necessarily through you. If someone does good to you, the UNIVERSE will give back the good to that person, again, not necessarily through you. Suppose for example, a person bullies a kid. On his way home, a dog might chase him down the road. It wasn't the bullied kid that gave him back his revenge. Flip side, a generous guy gives a homeless person a good amount of money. On his way to work, his boss might call him and inform him about a raise. The homeless dude did not give back to the generous dude, but he still got his share of goodness.
Sometimes, we don't SEE the revenge or the goodness coming back to that person. Someone insults us and abuses us with their tongue. Back home, they might slip and fall in the shower. You don't see that. But it happens. And personally, I take comfort in the fact that the universe is there taking care of me.
Hope this was honest enough for you. These are my thoughts, and my opinions, and I did not mold them to suit what you want to hear. It's pure me.
Thanks.. you are one of the very rare people whose answer i find really reasonable and honest.. i feel you are right.. and i m gonna remind myself of this every time such a thought comes in my mind.. Thank you once again ❤️❤️
I really need to mention this and i just have to.. most people who know me in real life..feel i m stubborn eccentric mentally unstable for bearing such ideas.. and they most often just don't want to answer my questions or even if they do their answers seem more of manipulation coz they keep their interest above my confusions.. but the way you put it.. you just make me believe that in a world where everyone wants to shut ppl raising questions and opinions contrary to the prevailing view.. there are people who want to explain things to ones like me.. and in the right way .. thank you so much
@oneamongstyou285, I smiled ear to ear after reading your comment. Oh man. Thank you. Believe me, there are people out there who care. You can include me in there if you want, but I just wanted to help someone having a rough time. I could see from your post that you needed a genuine, deep answer, not superficial or surface level. I'm glad it helped you out.
And hey, I do NOT think you are stubborn or unstable, even though I don't know you personally. You are amazing. You are. The questions and ideas that you come up with, make you original. They make you special. People these days can seem like they don't have any time for us. Honestly, I feel the same way. Why does no one sit down with me, and have a heart to heart conversation? Even if they try to help, deep down, you know they have some underlying motive. Its always there. Most of the times, at least.
I'm always available to have a conversation, one without stigma or judgement, 'cause I feel everyone deserves a shoulder to cry on, an ear to hear them out, and a heart that loves without prejudice. 'Cause I did not get one, I really make an effort to make sure no else ends up without it.
Thank you.. if you think i m so.. know that You are even more amazing.. It feels kinda good(sorry😬) to know there's someone else too and i m not alone with the problem of being heard but never listened, unless the other person gets benefited too..
Moreover what i have realised is it's hard to find people who give their opinions without motives and even harder for them to stay the same.. like i know a girI for the first few months when i met her online her biggest perk was her honest opinions abt what should be done irrespective of what she would have liked me to do.. but the thing is as time passed she has since tried to exert a bit of control and few times gave opinions that suited certain sections of my frnds.. so you see it's not like there's a clear line between people with or without motive.. people's nature is dynamic and evolving.. it's really fortunate of me to have been replied by you.. you have just let a really really big prblm off my mind.. i don't even remember the last time i was moved by anyone's words this way..such is the self suited way of giving opinions by those around me..
I really support the last paragraph.. even i do the same.. at least i try to..!
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I found it!!!!!!!!! Yessssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sooooo sorrryyyy, @oneamongstyou285 , I wanted to reply to your reply a loooong time ago, but as soon as I clicked the reply notification, my phone shut down, and I lost your post forever. Until now. Phew!!! I'm so glad I found it again!!!
@oneamongstyou285, your tip has worked. Hundreds of times, for me. Every chat that I have in the chatrooms, is just that. People you don't know, having a heart-to-heart conversation.
I’m gonna be very vulnerable here with you, @oneamongstyou285, because I feel like you are one of the few people who would genuinely be able to understand what I am going to say. I can’t find meaning in life. It is so, so, so hard to find someone who truly understands. I hate it. I hate my life. I cry myself to sleep every night. From the outside, I’m a joyous person, laughing at jokes, helping people out, hanging around with some really nice people. But on the inside, I’m a mess. No one understands, no one. I just want somebody to love, someone to hug tight when tears roll down their face, to wake up each morning and say, I love you, You’re amazing, You matter to somebody.To be able to listen to their problems in life, and to be there for them when they need me. I feel like everybody in this world is outside my bubble, and the bubble has a facade of the “happy me”. I wanna let someone inside that bubble. Show them that look, this is who I am. This is the real me. As you said, no one in this world really sits down anymore and really wants to connect with you. They don’t, at all. And it hurts, really, it hurts. With my depression, its so hard to find a reason to give my best. The reason I can sympathize with so many people going through emotional pain, is because I am the definition of emotional pain. I have let myself down more times than I can count. I can’t trust myself. Its hard. Very hard. I had dreams, which I can’t find anymore. You know how you would feel when you wake up in the morning next to the love of your life? Yeah. I would die for that feeling. To be friends with someone who listens to you, who asks you, hey, buddy, how are you today? You doin’ ok? Who gives you a hug when you need it. Who greets you with a sweet, warm smile when you see them. And I feel so, so, so selfish for wanting that. How selfish is it of me to take from the precious time of others?? I don’t matter. I don’t. My opinions don’t matter. I’m a psychopath. That’s what I am. A crazy, evil psychopath who is mentally insane. People have said that they love me, that I make them smile, that I brighten their day, and I’m glad. For them. That I was able to give them a good perspective on life. But that doesn’t change the fact that I am, deep, deep down, a monster. A hideous monster that I can’t control. I’m a werewolf, desperately trying to protect others from the monster inside me. A hideous monster. A vile monster. An evil monster. All my life, I just wanted to be able to show someone the real me. The me with all my faults, my vulnerabilities, my achievements, my sorrows, my happiness. And right now, I don’t have that. And it’s killing me.
Here’s a quote that I found :
@oneamongstyou285, thank you so much for listening to my rant. I know, it's a drag, and you probably don’t care about it, but still, thanks for reading. If you have ANY questions, please ask me. I know I wasn’t very clear in my post, but if you want any clarification, please ask. I would love to clarify for you.
And as a token of immense thanks for all that you have done for me, I want to give you a list of youtube videos that, in my opinion, are MASTERPIECES. They are anime, so hope you like anime!!
Here are the links to the vids:
Hiding in the blue - Hiding In The Blue - AMV -「Anime MV」
We’ll meet again - We'll Meet Again - AMV -「Anime MV」
Without you - 「AMV」- Sad Song ᴴᴰ
Popstar - POPSTAR - AMV - 「Anime MV」
Someone you loved - Someone You Loved - AMV - 「Anime MV」
Make you mine - Rascal Does Not Dream of Bunny Girl Senpai [AMV] - Make You Mine
No friends - End It - AMV -「Anime MV」
Control - Control - AMV -「Anime MV」
Light it up - Light It Up - AMV -「Anime MV」
I really hope you like these songs, @oneamongstyou285 . I find them to be amazing, but I understand if you don’t like them. We all have our own tastes, and I do not expect you to love all the ones I do.
Anyways, thanks again for listening to me, best friend!! I’m sorry if I overwhelmed you up there 😅.
Everything you just said in the Rant.. defines me too.. I won't make it long for you.. but i m not lying if i say 95% of those things fits the description of my life too... Honestly,It's kinda soul-friend type connection..
& I do care to read it all & try to understand what you might be going through..
I don't think I have done anything great for you.. other than sharing a thought-provoking question on the forum.. It was you whose opinion helped me out.. You have no idea how much.. I still remember your answer every time any bad idea like revenge comes to my mind.
At the moment i have no serious question for you.. but I would connect with you in chat..
Thank you so much for sharing these Vids i will definitely watch em all and tell you how nice i found them..
I m grateful that despite so less interactions between us you consider me a Best Friend.. But now that you do.. I won't let you down ❤️ It feels good to know someone considers me their best friend for real❤️❤️
@oneamongstyou285
After fighting and paying big as a result of that... Even I won the fight, I have paid for fighting... Now I am choosing not to fight for my physical and mental health 💌🌿
