Struggling to be with my dying dad
My dad has stage four cancer with nothing left to help. He's a different person after all the treatments took away everything I know of him. I can't seem to bring myself to spend time with him. Like I want to hold on as if the longer I avoid it, the longer I postpone the inevitable. I find myself coming home from work and going straight to my room until I have to go back to work. I always wish I was spending my time with him... but I just can't.
@gazemaze
It is one of the most difficult things you can do spending time with a dying person ( parent)......
they are not whom you thought they were ............or you may see or hear things you do not want to ..... but in the end after the fact you will regret it if you do not try.....
@gazemaze
so sorry to hear about your plight. It pains me deep when I see pics of how strong & bright my dad was just a few years ago. He's so frail now. I make it my business to "love on him" daily & cherish whatever I can because I don't want any regrets when he's gone.
@gazemaze
Hey, I'm so sorry to hear about your father, but i wanted to share my experience as my father passed away 3 years ago of cancer, he also had many treatments and he did get better for a year but then went down hill pretty fast that there was nothing that we can do about it except make him comfortable, and i was devastated to have to watch my father pass away that way and it was not fair, I'm still in shock about his passing 3 years later and its really hard to process, i have emotional days.. i just want you to know that it is extremely difficult and that i feel your pain and i hope you are able to accept due time but not forget about your father and i will also pray for your father.. <3
I am so deeply pained and sorry that you are going through this. At the end of the day, only you can answer to your conscience. You deserve peace.....in the future.
My own dad died recently and he was a cruel man. I helped to nurse him until he went into hospital. The night he died i sat with him and read him poetry. I hate the things he did but i love him as my dad.
I gave the eulogy at his funeral. I tried the very best i could and my conscience is at peace. It is the most difficult situation to be in. All i can say is to be guided by your internal compass and that you don't want to live with regrets. Do what is right for you, make those decisions and allow any negativity to pass. You are doing your best and i commend you for that. That takes guts and bravery, so at the end of each day, sleep easy....because you have done your best.
