Caring, the most complex of relationships

I have been unwell today and therefore my reserves are low. I have spent the last 25 years or more caring for various family members. Some i cared for with all my heart and others out of a sense of duty and because we all deserve to feel loved when we are ill and approaching the end of our life. I still have one caring role to fulfill and i am ever so weary. I started caring at 13 and soon i will be 50.

I will fulfill this last caring journey and after that i can do no more. I am empty, depleted and ever so weary. This will take every last reserve to fulfil to the best of my ability. I will do it out of love, although the love is not reciprocated. I will do the right thing, always.

I am tired and wandering into the territory of self pity....which i detest. But in my weaker moments i ask the universe, the Divine, etc.....why am i not worthy of love ? But dwelling in self pity gets us nowhere. Tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start. And we only progress in this life by facing our challenges head on and battling through. So tomorrow i will channel my inner Boudica and fight the good fight. Strength and love to all xxx