My family os beyond toxic
Hi i dont really know how this works but i wanted to share my story, any advice or comment/opinion is welcome as long as is costructive and polite ... in my house, my parents abuse me mentally, from all my life. Thqy also abuse verbally ALWAYS, and physically its happened. They manipulate every interaction, every word, everything. Beyond normal. Beyond imagination. They just told me lies all my life. They hate me. From always. I don't know why. Always treated me bad anytime they could.
And now that im older (im 21) i start to sense that my mother maybe is jelous of me. And is orrific and disgusting to understand. She envies me. And she hates me from all my life. Any interaction we have, even the most insignificant one, she finds a way to bring me down. With like one sentence. And im tired. Im exausted. Im not like her. Im not like any of them. From all my life. Its so weird, but that's how it is. She wants control, on everything. And my father is a big misogenist. He just doesn't care about me at all. He'se completely fake. Fakes in everything. But anytime i wanted to detach from them, they blocked me from doing it. With all the other familiar members. They have ways of manipulating, crazy ones. I also have a condition that makes my life difficult. A lot. So for me independence is a bit difficult to achieve. And they make just everything worse. I don't know what to do anymore. They still are jelous of me. And treat me bad always. I really don't know what to do. Thank you for anyone who will read this and give me an opinion or something. I hope it's comprensible, its really tiring even triying to explaining it for me ...