@Tori0707
Hey there, Tori!
I'm happy to see you sharing your thoughts on the forums!
I'm really proud of you, recovering from Anorexia can be terribly difficult, especially in the initial stages, because of how strong those voices can be, how much they try and hold you back from working towards a healthier mind and a healthier body. Now that you are restoring your body, dehydrating and trying to regain nutrition, that ED voice is going to get louder and fierce, it's going to make you more aware of those small changes you see, and it distorts how you see yourself, so what may start to look normal to others, may look exaggerated in your eyes, all it's trying to do is fool you into taking steps back.
You have that bravery and strictness in resisting the urge to restrict and lose weight again because you're aware that everything isnt instantly how youd like it to be. Give your body time, but also give it the best possible chance. I know it's going to be worth it in the end.
It may seem like you're eating too much, but your body is just regaining it's strength again. I'm really proud of you.
"Remember that just as you have to contemplate constructing a character for yourself after anorexia, you have to construct a body for yourself too, one that will be what you need it to be for the adventure of being more fully alive in the years to come."