i need help??

hey guys?? i feel so *** rn and im crying as i write this. so i used to suffer from anorexia and i dealt with a lot of health issues due to undereating. i lost my period and my doctor told me to start eating more. but ever since i started my recovery, i’ve been binging so often. it’s been a few months now and recently ive been binging almost everyday. i just had the worst binge of my life. i used to be so scared of ice cream and i hated it, but just today i had a whole pint of ice cream even tho i have fever! i can’t believe this keeps happening to me, how much ever i try to stop it just happens anyways. but this time it scared me, i dont wanna do this anymore. i feel like now that i’ve given myself freedom to eat, im so overwhelmed that im obsessed with food and i cant stop eating. how do you guys deal with binge eating? does it ever get better?