Recovery (Maybe)

@discreetPomegranate1970 I know gaining weight can be scary and I wish you didn't have to suffer, but remind yourself that that anxiety isn't coming from you- it's the eating disorder trying to keep you stuck. Also know that despite what the eating disorder says, your friends and family are not going to judge you or love you less because of the weight that you need to gain to be healthy. You deserve love no matter your weight. You're not going to lose control and you're not going to become some fleshy monster. I know it's really tough- I had to gain a lot to become healthy again and I was sent out of the rehab center to a psychward because the fear around gaining weight made me suicidal and I just would never want you to go through the same thing. Your eating disorder might scream that gaining weight means your life is over, that you won't deserve love, but just let it scream because you've got to kill it.