Day 5,6 and 7 of fixing my Eating Disorder
( I will try to give daily updates on my diet , but sometimes I get too busy due to clg work is getting on , so in such times I will give updates of multiple days all toghether)
Day 5 (26jul) - Unfortunately I got bit sick bc it's rainy season here and monsoon has picked up it's full power , due to my trek I was wet all day , result in coughing and sneezing,.so I had medicinal herbs tea , but diet remained as it is
Day 6 (27jul) - I actually ate less today bc i had my lunch so late that I was full till my dinner , but I got a light dinner
Day 7 (28jul) - again, my nose is blocked , and I felt feverish today , every Sunday of my week is basically my off diet day , but all I eat on Sundays is rice , along with pulses , grains ,. vegetables , and I make sure not to over eat it , I don't eat rice all along week , I get prepared tiffins for whole week , but Sunday's I make myself , i can cook , but Sundays , I like to chill and relax , so I cook rice and some vegetable , have rest day , and study
@amicableZebra1684
Hi Zebra!
Sorry to hear you've not been feeling well.
In terms of your relationship with food and with your own body image, how are you feeling?
You're explaining what you do every day, but how do you actually feel?
@turtleonmyleftarm you actually made me think for your question, it's mixed feelings out there i feel good physically and mentally when I'm on diet , but the thing is sometimes if I accidentally get even a small bite extra of something i can't deny no matter what , I get depressed, I see overeating as the last obstacle in my journey to get fit , I've been doing hum.since.2 yrs now , as of last year , when I moved out for my college, I started overeating and eating disorder grew. Before that I controlled myself a lot , *** this is reason I made.very small progress last year in my weight loss.
Rn , hunger isn't concern for me , the main problem is the depression I get when I even sometimes fail to control myself, I'm anti social, I have low self esteem and self confidence , bc of this I don't even have gf or not even friends , loosing weight and getting healthy is like a bit confidence booster for me , and bc i can't control my eating, eventually this being obstacle in my weight loss journey, and resulting again in being over weight , it scares me.
I started taking this seriously bc like in 40 days , I'm gonna go back to my hometown, bc few of my highschool frnds whom I didn't meet since 3-4yrs are gonna meet , I just want them to see positive changes in me , but whenever I get myself distracted , I'm getting depressed
@amicableZebra1684
@Turtleonmyleftarm Thank you so much. Idk how do I express but I'm feeling so relieved rn talking abt this. I started this challenge with myself, but I lost my motivation suddenly, idk what was it but your question, and your such beautiful explanation seriously made me less worry about you , jidk how do I express myself but you really helped he out here , no one ever asked me this till today , and i finally think I found out what was actually demotivating me
@amicableZebra1684
I am glad that being able to talk about this with someone, even if not in person and even if we don't know each other, is helping you.
Most of the times the answer is right in front of us, but we cannot see it until someone else points it out to us.
Of course I know things are easier said than done. Otherwise I would not be here, looking for help and support myself for my eating disorder. But since I first came here to 7cups I've understood that helping others actually helps ourselves too. Especially if we start talking to ourselves as we would to a third person. So I hope you can find some solace and help here!
