self diagnosed

@Iliveonbooksalone

hello! if you display ED behaviors and feel like you would benefit from a possible diagnosis or assessment, an official one could only come from a licensed professional. how did her saying that people who self-diagnose are bad make you feel? i personally do not see a point in attaching a moral value to any diagnosis or self-diagnosis, for that matter. getting support and help doesn't have to be a matter of diagnosis, although i understand it may feel like it and there are many systemic and personal pros and cons that come with a diagnosis. what makes you think you are fine restricting until someone notices? if someone notices, how would things change if at all? it's brave of you to reach out for help today, and i hope you continue to do that whenever you feel like it. it can be very hard battling possible disordered eating behaviors alone, so know that you are not alone and we ‘notice’ you. ❤️

@theriverissinging

@Iliveonbooksalone

that's bad going to a doctor is more worrisome than not going? i do get the concern of it all impacting so many things in life, including education. i can see why you felt bad, i would too in your place, it wasn't very considerate of where you were coming from if she was aware. EDs / such habits are definitely more than simply not eating or eating less; overeating and bingeing or feeling like you did so despite not doing that being one of them. i can see how it not looking bothersome to others on the outside makes you think it might not be serious. though if you feel concerned to talk about it, there's probably something that is bothering you, which is understandable. do you expect someone would notice, if so anyone specific you'd like to be noticed by? it does seem like you are struggling though, and i think acknowledging that helps. ❤️ all the ‘outwardly signs’ aside of you struggling or not, let us know if you need anything and we'd be happy to support in any ways we can.

@theriverissinging

@Iliveonbooksalone

@theriverissinging

it's been only almost a year, not that long, but i think it started as a way to cope with my stress and depression maybe?

@Iliveonbooksalone ah understandable, how it started / is related to the stress and depression. how has it changed / been like over the year?

@theriverissinging

i feel like at first it felt really good (when i wasn't restricting that much) and then a few months ago it was at its worst and i got to my lowest weight but then i started overeating again and gained some back and now i'm alternating between restricting and binging. it's weird, bc i can't really restrict properly but like at the same time (number) calories feels like too much even though i don't think it's a lot? so i try to restrict more and then binge again...

thanks for asking! how are you doing (if that's not rude to ask)?

@Iliveonbooksalone

Hi, I also had ED years ago and took me one and half year to notice that something is wrong with me when it become worst. I consulted with my family doctor , he along with a therapist helped me. I was shocked to know that the root cause of all this was depression. I didn't had any idea that I was going through depression. Then by following exercises and routines given by the doctor I got out of both ED and depression that too without heavy medication.

Please consult with a doctor before it gets serious and damaging. I got through the worst, can understand the situation.

Take care

@Iliveonbooksalone

that makes sense, friend. it can be a vicious cycle of restricting and binging, it does not make sense to the mind but it also does at the same time so we feel like continuing the same behaviors / it’s also comforting in ways perhaps? it would be really difficult to alternate and manage through all that, having “no ground” where you can feel satisfied, also having to deal with other things in life / just being at the same time.

and i’m good, thank you for asking too. 💕

@Iliveonbooksalone self diagnosis is how ppl get diagnosed in the first place! you have to believe you have the disorder to request testing/therapy, and i personally believe in self diagnosis