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Iliveonbooksalone
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my teeth are SO screwed
Eating Disorder Support / by Iliveonbooksalone
Last post
 April 3rd
...See more i only started purging like a month ago (maybe a month and a half) and i used to restrict before that the thing is i haven't even LOST any weight but my teeth are yellow and i used to have "perfect" (i don't like that they're called perfect that isn't how it works but yeah straight and white) teeth other than maybe staining from CAFFEINE but now ??? i'm so scared because my mom's a dentist she'll definitely know and also they don't grow back this can't be fixed it's not worth it none of this is worth it but i can't STOP
does anyone else miss even the "bad" parts of an ed?
Eating Disorder Support / by Iliveonbooksalone
Last post
 August 29th, 2022
...See more like i miss even the terrible horrible stuff. i miss my entire vision white/blacking out whenever i stand up and i miss randomly getting ringing in my ears and i miss my legs suddenly going numb and i miss the horrible acid reflux i got while fasting and i miss the stomach pains and being miserable and cold and weak why do i miss this stuff it's so messed up what is wrong with me
self diagnosed
Eating Disorder Support / by Iliveonbooksalone
Last post
 September 29th, 2022
...See more can you self diagnose eds? bc i haven't seen a doctor nutritionist and im never going to but i feel like i do display ed behaviours right? bc today i was talking to someone and she said that people who self diagnose mental health issues are really bad and i'm definitely self diagnosing ed but i'm probably fine right ahahah but if i'm fine that means i should keep restricting until someone notices right
i feel really good
Eating Disorder Support / by Iliveonbooksalone
Last post
 August 9th, 2022
...See more i've been eating mostly normally for like 4 days now and today i felt really stressed but i still ate breakfast and honestly i feel amazing like i have energy to do stuff and i dont feel really low and nauseous 24/7 eating is stressful but it's worth it hopefully i don't go back to restricting soon!
im wasting my life
Eating Disorder Support / by Iliveonbooksalone
Last post
 August 19th, 2022
...See more im just wasting my entire life with this ed like literally i can't study anymore i cant concentrate and i feel on the verge of mental breakdown 24/7 i hate my body and i hate myself so much i dont even know what to do bc it's not like i was happy before my ed either i was depressed and now im still depressed but i dont want to be depressed and i dont want to restrict anymore but at the same time im so terrified im going to gain weight i dont think i could handle that but im wasting every opportunity i get to achieve and experience all the things i want to and i dont know what to do just venting, sorry if this is utterly incoherent
i dont know what to do
Eating Disorder Support / by Iliveonbooksalone
Last post
 November 15th, 2022
...See more i want to eat i want to eat so much i want to just go and eat something but i know i will hate myself if i do especially since i already gained weight and i dont know what to do and i cant talk to my friends about it bc they'll tell me to eat too and bc they dont deserve to be burdened by my constant negativity i dont want an ed anymore but i dont want to get better and be a healthy weight i just want to be able to eat and i feel like that makes me a fake bc people with eds aren't "supposed" to feel hungry all the time and i do
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