my eating disorder story?
hey guys im 14 rn and i’ve been struggling with my eating for almost a year now. i became pretty chubby after covid and once high school started i started restricting. i wanted to become popular and the more i lost weight, the more friends i got (or atleast thats what it seemed like?) i’ve always been this nerd kid but finally i lost weight and the popular kids actually wanted to be friends with me n liked my personality. but then one day i almost fainted in front of my parents so i decided to stop restricting. i thought i recovered but i recently lost my period for 2-3 months. turns out im still under eating. but now i binge so often. like i let myself have whatever i want now and ever since i started recovery, i’ve been binging as well. before it wasn’t this often, but i’ve just binged 3 days in a row. im scared. i dont wanna do this anymore.
@notharinn Hey there, thank you for sharing your story with us. It takes a lot of courage to open up about struggles, especially ones as challenging as yours. It sounds like you've been through a lot, navigating changes in your body, your social circle, and your relationship with food.
It's understandable that you would want to fit in and feel accepted, especially during high school. But it's important to remember that your worth isn't determined by your appearance or how many friends you have. True friends value you for who you are, not for how you look or what you do.
It's also concerning to hear about your experiences with restrictive eating and now bingeing. It's a difficult cycle to break, but please know that you're not alone in this struggle. Recovery is possible, and there are people and resources available to support you along the way.
If you feel comfortable, reaching out to a trusted adult or a professional for help could be a positive step forward. You deserve to feel happy and healthy, both physically and mentally. Take care of yourself, and remember that there's hope for healing and recovery. We're here to support you every step of the way ♥
@Mya000
aww tysmm😭🫶🏻 you really don’t know how much this means to me. im really embarrassed to tell this to the ppl around me but at the same time ik i need help in recovery. thankss tho like it really helps just to know that ppl r there for support💗
@notharinn Aw, you're so welcome! It takes a lot of courage to open up, especially when you're feeling embarrassed or vulnerable. There's no need to feel embarrassed because seeking help and support is a courageous act in itself. Remember you're not alone in this. There are people who care about you and want to support you every step of the way. Reaching out for support is a significant stride toward healing. Sending you lots of love and support 💕
@Mya000
aww thanks so much😭😭 this rly gave me a lot more confidence that recovery is possible for me too, and that i always have ppl to support me. tysmm🫶🏻
I am 16 and have had an eating disorder since I was 12 years old. it started because I was in foster care and was always told I was fat, and that I needed to lose weight. I have continued to try and lose weight but have only put more on. I did not know why for a long time and was making myself sick trying to change myself. it turns out the reason I keep gaining weight was because I have PCOS. which makes it harder to lose weight. I still struggle with it and will go weeks at a time without eating. I really want to get better but don't know how to start.
@alixec020508
oh that’s sounds hard! it’s been only a year since i got an ed but 4 years must be harsh.
but yeah ik how it feels to have other ppl judge u and tell u that u need to loose weight. so often we protect ourselves from their harsh comments by changing ourselves for them. what would really help with your mindset is telling yourself that you’re loosing weight for yourself and your health rather than for others. you want to loose weight for yourself and not because others want you too.
but for loosing weight, have you considered contacting a nutritionist or a dietician? im sure they’ll find a way to do it in a healthy way
@notharinn i have a hole team i am working with but even they keep judging me.
@alixec020508
oh no that sounds hard. it’s great that you’re reaching out for help and u wanna get better. recovering from an ed is a long and painful journey, and i can say that from experience. but i think u shud find ppl who respect u and love u for who you r. you deserve to be loved just as u are. have u tried looking for other professionals or switching ur therapist??
@notharinn they are all i can afford
@alixec020508
ohh um have u tried talking to ur family about this issue?
@notharinn Yes, when I still had one. Long story I don't want to talk about but I am getting rid of my team and I am going to try this on my own. I have support from a couple of people one being my bf so wish me but
@alixec020508
oh I wish u good luck and I really hope u recover soon! it’s good that you’re getting rid of your team since they aren’t helping u. but i get what you’re going through. in fact, im going thru somewhat the same thing. no one understands how i feel, i cant get therapy cuz my parents won’t let me and im too young. so yeah i dont know who to talk to either. but I’ve found listening to podcasts and reading self help books really help. you can try joining an online recovery plan too maybe?? im rooting for you and i hope u recover soon!
@notharinn you to and thank you. I have a listener account if you ever need to talk
