idrk what i have
so abt 2ish years ago in january 2019 i started a starvation diet where id barely eat anything it started as a joke then i became obsessed i never realized i had a problem until i was telling my best friend abt the diet and how i can’t eat anything and almost started crying my whole life tho i was pretty obsessed with my weight i was always looking up “how to loose 20 lbs” or “workouts to get abs” since like 3rd grade i would try so many things even if i was already skinny and i was more obsessed with the number on the scale and not the way i look i’ve gotten better but i still find myself wanting to starve myself to be skinnier and lots of times i binge at night and eat anything in sight so it’ll go like binging starving binging starving and i feel like i have an ed but sometimes i think do i just want attention ugh idk