Really want to stop fighting....

@KatieMoon1, thank you for sharing your struggle. Yes often it can feel like lifting others is easier than lifting yourself. It can be indeed difficult to not give in and continue to struggle for the hope of any bit of recovery and often giving up feels like what we want cause it is easier. I like the example of the whole you used. it feels like you are exhausted at the moment. Can you think of any way through which you can maybe relax for a while? anything that helps you ?

@EssenceOfHope

I don't know. I keep holding out for the weekend when I can do something else. I don't get much rest as I work 8 hrs a day and commute for 3. I'm barely surviving right now. I'm not in a good place. I've told my doctors and my therapist and hopefully Someome can help hold me up. Ugh. Sorry.

@KatieMoon1 Recovery is certainly not a smooth process, as I'm sure you know. I know bounce back and forth between bingeing and restricting almost all the time, and I agree that fighting those demons is one of the hardest and most exhausting things I've ever had to do. It's not easy but I know you're strong. You can do this. Keep fighting and good luck!

@beautifulKoala49

Thanks for your faith in me. I am feeling better today because it's the weekend and I started a new medication today that's supposed to help. It's given me a crazy amount of energy so at least there's that. I wish it turned off the thoughts too. They're still there. :/ Maybe with time and work.