Losing Memory as a Result of my Eating Disorder

Hello,

I wanted to post in here to see if anybody else is experiencing the same problems I am facing at the moment. If you have anything that may help, I'd really appreciate that.

Recently, I've been experiencing some memory problems as a result of my Eating Disorder. It has been getting progressively worse, I can't remember much of the past - I feel stupid when people ask me about my past and I simply can't remember anything from ages when I should remember. My long term memory, has definalty suffered - but so has my short term memory! It's difficult to explain, but I find it super difficult to remember things at the moment, not because I don't care but because it simply leaves my mind. I write lots of notes, and to do lists to try and remember - even then sometimes I forget!

An example of something that i've been suffering with recently is even just general speak, i find myself stuttering a lot (not because I have a stutter) but more because I am trying to piece together what I want to say, and sometimes I forget what I am saying altogether. It takes me a couple of tries to get the whole sentence out. Those around me, haven't said anything but I know how frustrating it is for them to wait so long for the simple sentences. I get super embarrased about it, and I don't know what to do.

I know I brought this on myself and I'm frustrated I let it get to this point - but I see no way out now. Memory is super important - with exams, with knowledge, with everything. I'm at a loss. Any help would be much appreciated!