I think I might have an eating problem.
In the past few years of my life, I've struggled with a few eating problems but I'm not completely sure if these habits are related to anorexia or not. My problem is I either eat too much or too little. I've been struggling with weight loss for a little less than half of my life, due to insecurities and bullying. It's been my dream and need to be skinny. I workout a lot but it upsets me that I don't see a big difference. And along with this, I tend to binge eat a lot, like I can't control how much I eat. No matter how much I try to limit myself I can't. And if I'm not binge eating like crazy, I'm barely eating or not at all. Along with trying to lose weight to get my dream body, I can tend to starve myself to help the weight loss process, but then I eat again and it drives me crazy, and makes me feel hopeless about my body. No matter how much people tell me, I can't love my body and my eating problems are big factors of this. I can't control how much I eat, and I don't know how to. As of now I am trying to eat less along with working out a lot to lose weight, but then I eat again and feel the need to exercise more. I don't know how to control my unhealthy eating habits or to lose weight, and I desperately want and need to.
@maleiaiaia
Hey there! I'm really sorry to hear that you're dealing with self-esteem and body image issues, along with struggles with food. It sounds like you've been going through this for a while and that people around you might not fully get what you're experiencing—they just tell you to love your body. Mentioning anorexia and binge eating shows you're dealing with serious stuff. It's great that you're here, reaching out for help. It shows you want to get better and are taking steps to do so. We're here for you, and you might find some helpful advice by checking out old posts in this community.
I get that you want to take control of your eating habits and weight. Being a teenager can make it tougher to do some things that adults can do more easily. How possible is it for you to seek support from a trusted adult in your life?
@Remina
I dont know who I'm supposed to go to with this problem. My parents have noticed my eating habits and made me feel worse about it. They like to say Im anorexic as a joke and its annoying. I think telling them this would just make them make more jokes or be strict with me with my eating, like watching my every move and make me feel bad about it. And I find it embarrassing to talk about it with my friends, I hate eating in front of people or eating too much so I don't, and talking about food in general makes me feel insecure, so I wouldnt talk about my body or food with them. Im scared of what they would say and think. Im not sure what my problem is, but I do know I need to control it and eat less. I do need to lose weight and Im about to exercise again. thank you:)
@maleiaiaia
It sounds like you’re really self-conscious about your weight and eating habits. I’m really sorry that your parents made you feel invalidated by joking about something that’s clearly serious to you. It's understandable that you’d have a hard time trusting them to support you after that. Opening up to friends can be tough, and I’m sorry you feel embarrassed talking about it. What specifically makes you feel that way?
You mentioned needing to control your eating and eat less, but it’s really about learning healthy eating habits. It's okay to enjoy your food and to want to be at a healthy weight. Sometimes it helps to imagine what advice you’d give to a friend in your situation. What would you say to them?
@maleiaiaia same