Hopelessly Addicted to Thinspo and Stuck
I know this is a sensitive topic for most people, but my obsession with thinspo has hit a critical point. My addiction to thinspo has gotten worse recently, and I can't help but gravitate towards it and think about thinspo all the time. Being too self-aware for my own good, I notice I tend to look at or think of thinspo when I am bored or lonely or if my parents get mad at me. I don't know where to go next. I always say I'll starve myself and work to be like them, but I always wimp out. I'm stuck. I don't know whether it's even worth it to try to get away from this, especially with all the heartbreak and pressure on me to "get over it." I miss my old courage and discipline. What should I do now?
Some things that I look at or think of as thinspo, in case the information helps any: Supreme Court justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg (weird, I know), historical portraits, younger photos of my mom, inspirational quotes, and a couple of my friends at school.
@ErwineRommel
honey nobody here is going to help you to "have the discipline" aka to starve yourself again.
if you have a problem, go to a therapist and they can help. i never had this kind of a problem.
@FuturePsychologist2 I'm not asking for tips to starve, though. I was asking for some tips to help break my thinspo addiction. It's okay, though.
To answer here, I would like to meet with my eating disorder specialist and my psychologist, but my dad is extremely reluctant to take me there. I'm already too busy with school and extracurricular activities (Robotics Club, community service, etc.) to have time. I don't want to be a burden or skip out on my obligations.
@ErwineRommel
Dear one,
I think it took a lot of courage to write this out here, that is a good step. Any addiction is tough, and most of us have something we wish we could "get over" - you aren't alone. You also are in with the rest of us stressed out with too many demands on life- whether it is school,work,family,friends and now Holidays. We all want to say- something has to give! Whatever is our weakness, it is hard to deal with when the pressure is high. I think there are resources and Listeners and chats here that Can help- especially if your Dad is hesitant to take you for professional help. Nobody I know has broken a long term addiction habit on willpower alone, so don't beat yourself up. I hope you can get some support and tips here - look around and don't give up. I am sending hugs and - a big high five to take another step.
I completely agree with everything MusicCandy said, and if you could use some extra support, you're more than welcome to reach out to me!
