Eating Disorders- Does anyone know about your ED?
Haves anyone discovered your ED?
Have you confided in anyone about your ED?
If you havent who would you consider reaching out to?
No one has discovered my ED...it is a dark secret. Sometimes my husband gives me weird looks but I have told him that I have been fine since before my kids...total lie. When he asks me if I ate, I tell him I ate while making dinner or snacked big before dinner. So far, I think I have him fooled.
I once confided in a counselor and he told me I wasn't skinny enough, that makes me want to lose more....I did tell one friend who is also a counselor but I feel like it is a burden to her.
@Chillybones01 Thank you for your response im sorry to hear about your dark secret of having an ED, do you feel you could ever try to confide in anyone else such as dr if youre not ready to tell your husband? maybe your secret can get some light. even speaking with someone more here anonymously.
Im sorry to hear that a counselor has sad unkind untruthful things to you! you dot deserve to be treated poorly especially when reaching out for help, or a listening ear.
I also can understand the feeling of burdening someone as i to have felt this way about my ED and sharing it but its always easier to have help people to silencing a monster, and as your friend is a counselor she may know how to help carry the weight of your secret. without it being a burden.
Feel free to reach out to myself or one of the other amazing ED specilized listeners.
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@Chasingbutterflies
I don't think I am ready for telling a doctor nor my husband. I am not ready to let go of this secret. The not eating gives me a power that you can't understand. It's mine, and mine alone. I have no identity, except wife and mother. And don't get me wrong, I love both, but along the way, I lost myself...or never found myself.
I would be ashamed of telling a doctor since I am still fat, if I mention something, they will think I am crazy...and if they ask, I will probably deny it....
@Chillybones01 It is your feeling and i do not understand it fully, as our emotions and feelings are ours alone, i can relate to your feelings, and can understand where they are coming from, maybe by reaching out annonymouly on here could be a step towards finding yourself? <3
No.. nobody has noticed my ED. My parents just saw that I was skinnier and skinnier. Then I started to gain weight.. Sometimes I'm starved myself, sometimes I'm binging. This is a difficult time for me in my life.
@jstm - It's definitely a hard thing to go through, and harder still if you're doing it alone, without the support of others. If your parents are noticing you losing weight already, do you think it might help to tell them what's going on and get their support?
When I was in high school I confessed to a teacher about past behavior in middle school, but it was when I believed I no longer had a problem. I think my little sister new, but no one ever said anything.
Recently, I've been really stressed and thought that eating healthy and exercise would help me focus on something else other than the stress, but old habits began to creep in. Over the holidays my obsession with food got really bad and overwhelming and pretty much had a break down. I tried to tell my mother what was the problem and she basically told me that I was being ungrateful about my life. Since then I've remained silent. I have wanted to get help since the new year, but am too afraid of being judged again.
@JasMGrey - I'm so sorry you felt judged by your mother when you tried to reach out for help. I know it took a lot of courage to reach out, and you deserved to be believed and supported. I understand how scary it can be to ask again, when you're already feeling invalidated, but not everyone will react that way, and you deserve to get the help that you need. If you want to start by talking here, you can message me or any other listener and we can listen, support, and help you find resources to get you back on the path to recovery. You can beat this.
I was able to confide in my best internet friend about mine and she began to worry. Everytime I go to the doctors they are suspicious since my BMI is so low and they have threatened to send me to the hospital for a feeding tube but they havent done it (thank God) and they haven't figured it out (thank the mighty Lord). I feel like it's a demon thats following me that nobody can see but me and its the worst feeling because I feel so completely alone in all of this. My best friend knows somethingis going on but she respects that I want to keep it to myself and agrees to just be there but I feel like its a lose lose situation whether I tell her or not. So, instead I'm left alone with a BMI of less than 15.6 thats dro[[ing everyday and making me more sick than I was expecting to be and no one to turn too.
@Needtovent
try to seek help, do not let it get too out of control.
Yeah, eventually when it got so bad that I nearly died. I only wish I had asked for help sooner. Eating disorders are a horrible thing, and it is no shame in asking for ask, just do not leave it too late. And always remember we all have capacity to change, strength and resilience. Stay strong all.
@Jw1985 - I'm sorry it had to get so bad before you were able to seek help, but thank you for sharing your story and helping others to see the need to seek support sooner. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here.
I kept my binging and purging a secret for 23 years. And only two people know now, and the disorder goes on. It is crazy but it gives me a combination of satisfaction and ability to punish myself that I haven't been able to give up. I am ashamed of it, but not as ashamed as I am of how I look.
@Lostandfoundandlost - What do you think life would look like without binging and purging? Can you picture a better situation where you don't need it anymore? What would it take to get there? If you want to talk through any of it, I'm here.
In september I was in inpatient for anorexia after struggling for 2 years. My family and close friends know, although, my dad is super wierd about it. Some people my mom told know too, which I didn't like at first but I just don't have the energy to care anymore. One of the assistant managers at my work knows too and then she somewhat told another guy i work with which I kinda hate she did that but oh well.
@Jennyisamermaid - I can hear how exhausted you are right now, but I know that the hard work of recovery is worth it in the end. With so many knowing, can you lean on them for support when you're too tired yourself?
@Jennyisamermaid No one has discovered my DE. It is a dark secret. Sometimes my husband looks at me strangely, but I have told him that I have been fine since before my children completely lied. When he asks me if I ate, I tell him that I ate while preparing dinner or ate a bite before dinner. I once trusted a counselor and he told me that I wasn't thin enough to want to lose more. I told a friend that she is also a counselor, but I feel it is a burden for her. I will offer her legit essay writing services now. Do you feel that you could ever try to trust someone else like Dr. if you are not ready to tell your husband? Maybe your secret can get some light. I am sorry to hear that a counselor has sad and untruthful things for you! I am sorry to hear that a counselor has sad and untruthful things for you! You deserve to be treated badly, especially when you seek help or hear an ear.
Some people know about my EDs but they dont understand the severity of them. Other people just think I like to diet or try new fads but they can't even begin to understand the struggle I face every day to try to make right decisions about what to eat or not to...nor do they see the many days that end in feeling like a total failure because I couldn't reach my goals.
No one knows about my ED, I've been hiding food and binge eating for almost a year now. It's hard just keeping this to myself. I get so upset and down because it's too much for me. I'm not sure who to tell.
