i can’t stop binge eating

I grew up as the fat kid and in high school i decided i wanted to loose weight. and i succeeded, i underate and lost ton of weight. suddenly ppl started complimenting me and i felt pretty so i felt this pressure to keep this identity as a skinny person. i dont know when it started but i began binge eating. and as time goes, it keeps getting worse and worse. the intensity of the binges become worse and it becomes more frequent. it used to be once a month, then it became once a week, then it was once a day and now its twice a day! i dont know what to do. the thought of becoming my old fat self again terrifies me, but yet i continue to binge. will this ever stop? will i ever get better? do you guys have any suggestions on how i can recover?