Why can't I stop?
I can't stop eating. I portion out my food, take pills that are supposed to supress appetite and make you feel fuller faster, and drink a TON of water...but I still can't stop. I always end up going back to the kitchen to get more food...always chocolate, nuts, or sunbutter. I hate myself so much afterwards. No matter how hard I try I can't stop. I want so badly to lose weight and everytime I start to make progress my binging gets me off track again.
I am so fucking stupid. I am so fucking worthless. No one will ever fall in love with someone like me.
@coffeelover1218
Hey there :)
I just wanted you to know you're not alone. The more I try to control my eating, the more obsessed I become with food, and the more I eat! For me, one way to conquer it is not to have the food in. I've not eaten chocolate this month (is it really only the 16th 😐), because I've just not bought it. I'm also just trying to stay on track every day, just for that day. And if I fall down, I get straight back up. No bingeing because I think I've wrecked it, but no guilt either. I can't change what I've done up to now, but I can change what I do going forward.
But, you know, maybe the most important thing is to realise you're worth this. You deserve to be happy and healthy. You deserve to treat yourself well. Whatever's gone on in the past, the future is in your hands - make it a good one sweetheart.
I did it again. Why why why why why.
im such a fucking piece of shit
@coffeelover1218 you're certainly not a piece of shit !
@coffeelover1218
Two things that can help!
The first is to rewire the binge-eating habit.
Charles Duhigg talks about habits and automatic actions and how by rewiring your brain to take another action, you can cut down on your habit of grazing / eating in a binge way.
Here is an NPR article and here is a TED Talk talking about how habits matter
The second is to stop automatic negative thoughts (called ANTs)
Here is a quick article about ANTs. Sometimes knowing that these exist is helpful in then pausing before blaming yourself for "failures" and thinking of them as temporary setbacks rather than permanent failures.
Sending you TONS of love and support <3
- xx, AdVictoriam
