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coffeelover1218
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PathStep 81 Compassion hearts55 Forum posts52 Forum upvotes65 Current upvotes65 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2016 Member sinceFebruary 6, 2016
Bio
My name is Ashleigh and I'm 21. I love coffee obviously, and I work in a coffee shop. Right now I'm going to school for Social Work and I hope to work in DCFS. Something that we've learned in my courses is that before you help others, you must first help yourself. So, that's why I'm here. I've struggled with eating disorders, depression, and anxiety for a really long time and some days its hard to find motivation to do anything. I am very open when it comes to educating others on self-love and care but have a hard time on doing those things myself. I really want to get better.
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never enough
Depression Support / by coffeelover1218
Last post
 April 17th, 2016
...See more Every day I wonder why I'm still alive. I think about whether or not I'm good enough, whether or not I'm worthy enough. I am completely falling behind life. While all of my friends and family are moving foward and progressing, I'm slowing down and going nowhere. No matter how hard I try I'm not good enough. I'm stupid. I'm worthless. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm hopeless. There's no point in trying when all I ever do is fail. I don't want to die, but what's the point in living if you're not alive?
Why can't I stop?
Eating Disorder Support / by coffeelover1218
Last post
 April 18th, 2016
...See more I can't stop eating. I portion out my food, take pills that are supposed to supress appetite and make you feel fuller faster, and drink a TON of water...but I still can't stop. I always end up going back to the kitchen to get more food...always chocolate, nuts, or sunbutter. I hate myself so much afterwards. No matter how hard I try I can't stop. I want so badly to lose weight and everytime I start to make progress my binging gets me off track again. I am so fucking stupid. I am so fucking worthless. No one will ever fall in love with someone like me.
Equine Therapy?
Safety & Knowledge at 7 Cups / by coffeelover1218
Last post
 July 17th, 2018
...See more Has anyone ever done work with equine therapy? My therapist does some work with that and she finds it very invigorating but I'm not sure how it would work...anyone had success with it?
2 steps forward, 3 steps back
Eating Disorder Support / by coffeelover1218
Last post
 April 12th, 2016
...See more After a good couple of weeks controling me eating, I binged almost 3 days in a row. I feel horrible. I hate that I do this to myself. I don't know why I constantly put myself in this position. I'm so fucking stupid. I have an appointment with a therapist tomorrow. Hopefully that will help, otherwise....idk what i'm going to do.
My Thesis
Disability Support / by coffeelover1218
Last post
 April 10th, 2016
...See more Hi everyone, My name's Ashleigh and I'm currently working on a thesis involving the disabled youth in foster care. I know that is kind of reaching, but if anyone here has been or is currently in foster care I would really like to ask you a few questions. [Edit by AffyAvo Questions removed, this is an old topic, for future projects use: https://www.7cups.com/about/research.php ] I really appreciate any of the help! All the best xx
Lonely
Relationship Stress / by coffeelover1218
Last post
 March 30th, 2016
...See more I am 21 years old and I have never had a real boyfriend. It makes me feel unlovable, ugly, and unwanted. One of my biggest goals in life is to have a family--kids, a husband, a dog. How can I reach that goal if I'm 21 and haven't even taken baby steps? All I've ever done is kiss 1 boy and I didn't even have feelings for him! I don't know what to do. I feel so worthless.
Spring Break Blues
Eating Disorder Support / by coffeelover1218
Last post
 March 20th, 2016
...See more I was fortunate enough for my family to fly me out to California to visit them over spring break, but instead of relaxing and having fun with them all I can think about is food--how much I am eating, how much the food weighs, how much I am liquid I'm drinking, how long I'll need to exercise to burn off those calories, and how much I weigh. It's exhausting. I hate how much this disorder controls my life but I'm scared to change. I don't want to become obese again. Even though I still feel fat most of the time, I don't feel obese anymore. Is that progress or is it just my mind saying my disorder is working? I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.
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