Why can't I stop?
I have a serious binge eating disorder. I hate this so much. I eat and it's like I don't even have a conscious. I just ate a whole bag of chips and I ate dinner 3 hours ago! What is wrong with me??
I just ate a salad, a chalupa, milk duds, and half a pizza. I'm so full it hurts. I want to throw it up but I swore I'd never purge. In total I ate 2 days worth of food today. Ugh that's the second time this week I do this. I eat the nastiest mix of foods and feel so sick. Only at night, and then I'm so stuffed I can't sleep >.
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@Ocean1357 and @MarianTheSiren - I'm so sorry to hear that you're both struggling right now. Binging can be so difficult to overcome, and I know there can be some pretty intense feelings of anxiety or guilt associated with it. But I also know that this is something that you can get through. Take it one day at a time, reach out for the support that you need either here or from family and friends, and strive for progress, not perfection.
I've posted this a million places, so you may be sick of seeing it, but these words helped me so much in recovery: Today I will do my best. If I have a good day, I will be proud of myself. If I have a bad day, I will not dwell on it, I will forgive myself, I will put it behind me and I will continue to move forward in my recovery
You are both strong and courageous to reach out here and to face this, and I know that you can get through it. Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help support you. <3
Dear @Ocean1357 and @MarianTheSiren,
Do not think there's anything wrong with you! I spent years blaming myself for binging, I didn't know what it was until one day I realised I was SICK. BED is a disease, and there is no reason you should try to cope with it all alone.
I found help confiding to my closest ones and buying a self-help book. I am now following a treating program and so far I've been quite pleased with my results. The program includes eating every 3-4 hours, writing down what and when you eat, and substituting urges to binge with other activities.
Every day is still a battle, but I'm determined to get better! I hope you too will find the treatment that best suits you!
Courage! xxx
@TodayICanDoIt What kind of self help book? I have been struggling with binge eating and I am very interested in some form af help.
@musicness
I bought Overcoming Binge Eating, Second Edition: The Proven Program to Learn Why You Binge and How You Can Stop, by Christopher Fairburn.
You can have it as paperback, hardcover or Kindle book, which is very handy. I bought mine in Amazon.com.
I find it very helpful, I hope it works for you as well!
Hi I've come here for help I know everyone here has also come for help , so whenever I'm home I always have the need to eat something and even if I don't want to I some how convince myself to eat something , and I always regret it in the end , I always have the need to finish the food other wise I would be wasting but I know what I am doing is not right so can someone please help me wot this
@friendlyBranch9823 - Binge eating is hard to overcome, but you're not alone (as you can see in this forum!) and it is possible. I think it's a big step that you're reaching out here, and I'm proud of you for that. The next step is to be kind to yourself and forgiving when you slip because it happens and while it's frustrating, it's okay.
One thing that has helped me break habits is to give myself permission, but with a time limit attached. So I might say that I'm allowed to eat whatever it is, but I have to wait 30 minutes first and during that time I distract myself so that maybe it doesn't feel as necessary later. It doesn't always work, but sometimes does which is a start.
Take care and keep reaching out for support. You are strong and you can do this!
I have binge eating whenever I am stress or worry about something.I couldn't stop eating that my healthy eating diet plan is always ruined!I feel so guilty after eating so much and I tried to exercise so that I can burn the fat.help!
@StarryNight21 - It's hard when you're feeling so stressed to not fall back into old habits. As I said above, I think the first step is being forgiving to yourself when it happens. Try to speak to yourself as you would a good friend who was equally frustrated with themselves. What would you tell them?
It may also help to look at alternate ways to let off stress. What other things make you feel calmer and more able to manage? Is it listening to music? Drinking a cup of tea? Talking to a friend? What are some alternatives you can try first next time?
Take care and feel free to reach out anytime.
I'm not sure why we binge eat tbh. I've suffered with it for over 20 years and not been able to get a grip of it. It impacts on every part of my life and is a terribly lonely disorder with much suffering - usually in secret because of the embarrassment, shame and disgust it generates.
B.E.D was only catorgorised as an eating disorder in 2013 so research is extremely limited in explaining why it exists and what is the best treatment. Currently CBT is advised as an effective therapy to help with the disorder. I begin CBT sessions on Monday after waiting for over a year. Fingers crossed I get a good therapist because I bloody need one! I think I have lost belief that I will ever succeed at this.
@Silkysocks - I'm so happy to hear you are starting CBT - I know it has been so incredibly helpful for so many, and I'm hopeful that it will help you, too. If you ever need to just vent to someone who understands or want to talk more outside of your CBT sessions, feel free to PM me anytime. Good luck and take care. You can do this!
I think I need help. I don't know where to turn to. I can't handle this anymore.
@Icantspeakfacetoface - I'm really proud of you for reaching out here. I know it's never easy to ask for help, but doing it is a huge step. There are lots of resources that can help you, from listeners here (you are welcome to PM me) to support groups, both online and in person, to therapy. None of it is easy, but it is possible to get through this, and we can help. Take care and be safe.
I had a weekend of bulimia relapse...i hate it too. Old mental tapes and habits arise and I go on auto pilot. Can we think of intervention activities or any ideas?
@circleoflife215 - my biggest trick was always just to tell myself I could do it, but I had to wait 20 minutes first and then go find a distraction for those 20 minutes. Sometimes it didn't stop me, but a lot of times, 20 minutes was enough to break out of that auto-pilot cycle and calm me down so I didn't feel the need as strongly.
In terms of distractions, I liked coloring, watching TV, reading, calling a friend, going for a walk, doing sudoku online, taking quizzes at sporcle, and writing. Hope one of those helps!
