I'm a desperate mom because of binge eating / food addiction

I'm writing this post because I'm really desperate about my food addiction. First of all, sorry for my poor vocabulary and grammar. English isn't my native language.

Since I got my first child, 3,5 years ago, I started overeating. At the beginning, it didn't sound very bad and was mainly occasionally. Probably due because I tried a few diets to lose some weight, even if I didn't gain that much during pregnancy.

I then went on a gluten free diet for 1 year as a doctor told me that gluten was maybe the cause of some of digestive pains I had at this time. Even though my digestive issues went away, I finally ended this diet as temptations became way too strong for me.

Then I got pregnant again, and as my husband started traveling a lot, leaving me and my 1 year old alone most of time (we were just relocated from Europe), I started having a lot of frustrations: During most of this pregnancy, we were closed in the apartment as it was located on 3rd level with no elevator, and the building was far from most things + I didn't drive. In fact, I couldn't even access a grocery store by myself. I started eating more..

Then finally, right before my second delivery, we moved to a house where things were a bit more accessible. I was happier, nor pregnant anymore, and I even quit smoking (after 10 years of it 😥) and started running, But then, my relationship with my husband didn't improve. In fact, it got worse and worse. We saw 1 therapist together and I also saw 1 other by myself. It didn't help our relationship. This is at this time, that I really started binge eating.

Since, we moved to another state and we're happier where we are now. We still have strong relationship issues and we see another therapist. I overeat like I never did before. I don't even know if I could possibly eat more as my stomach is in pain most of the time.

I tried to talk about it to people around me, including my husband and therapists. But they seem to think that it's not really an issue since I'm not overweighted. They think it's temporary and maybe due to breastfeeding (since 3 years).

However, they don't see how much I really eat and even if I don't gain a lot of weight, I do so little by little. I'm very active, I run and go to the gym so I burn some calories. But that's nothing compare to the few thousands I eat a day..

I know I have a serious issue and it's mainly due to my inability to cope with my emotions like frustration, stress, sadness and boredom (I'm a stay at home mom but wish I could work. I found a job last year and had to quit because we didn't find appropriate childcare. I now prepare a college degree by taking online classes. I do yoga, Pilates, gym classes, running... I take care a bit of myself (makeup, clothes) and I also started mindfulness and meditation.

I read a lot about binge eating and eating disorder, and try all I can to change but just don't succeed. The best I did at this time is 3 days with no binge eating but it occurs about once a month. Food is always in my mind. The hardest times are:
1. evenings
2. ‎meals with the kids (because I cook, sit & eat with them)
3. ‎when kids get fussy
4. ‎when I'm bored (and I don't feel like doing more activities that I already do)

Does anybody live something similar? If yes, did anybody succeed to stop that cycle and eat normally? How did you do? How do you manage stress related to kids? I actually found way more easier to quit smoking!!!

Every night I'm sad recalling all I ate during the day. Then I hope that tomorrow gets better.. But it never does..