Feelings and stress over food

I know i have a problem with food and i want to fix it but im really overwhelmed and i dont know where to start and i need a support person. Anyone looking for a support buddy? I have wanted to loss weight almost my whole life. I was abused most of my childhood and told that i was to fat even when i starved myself, worked out for many hours a day nearly every day, and lost over 50lbs in a few months summer. That was years ago and i consider that my lowest low. Now, years later and now i am an adult i find myself still wanting to lose weight but not just because off all the voices in my head from my past but because im in a healthy relationship with someone and he and I want to have kids and i want to just be healthy and not be worried about health risks that may become a problem because of me being overweight. The problem isnt me starving myself anymore or bulimia like it used to be. The problem is that i never get hunger cues even if i dont eat for a long time. And once i stop eating i cant stop until i feel sick. Im addicted to food. And because we are broke its hard to buy healthy food and i live off of dollar general food for the most part. My partner eats alot of suger foods and its like i cant help but buy multiple sugary foods for each day. I dont even enjoy food that much anymore and its sad. Its like the habits get worse when im stressed and bored. At least its getting warm out so maybe i can spend more time outside instead of inside. Being inside to much is my biggest trigger i think. Anyways im really overwhelmed and new to this app and would like to find some support systems and some answers on what steps maybe i should take? Thanks for listening! 💙