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Yandapanda1998
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PathStep 47 Compassion hearts916 Forum posts25 Forum upvotes29 Current upvotes29 Age GroupAdult Last activeJune, 2023 Member sinceApril 17, 2021
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How trauma affects relationships.
Trauma Support / by Yandapanda1998
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 May 6th, 2021
...See more I find myself feeling like my partner could be better off without me. I feel like i always do the wrong things. I want other things from him but he has his own trauma so pressuring him doesn't help but for some reason i still do it without thinking. He tells me i need to relax and i think i am relaxed so i feel more stressed cause idk what im doing wrong. Relationships and trauma on both sides is hard and frustrating. Im trying to stay calm and not overreact. I cant help but cry and be upset sometimes though. Like right now he and i are drinking and im feeling really upset and he says he doesn't want hugs or kisses or for me to touch him but thats all i want to do and its hard. We are trying to have a baby and it seems impossible because of all the intimacy issues and stress. Anyways, things are hard i hope i can figure this all out and that he and i can be there for each other more and understand each other....
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Sexual abuse trauma and life after your safe
Trauma Support / by Yandapanda1998
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 April 28th, 2021
...See more Does anyone ever feel like when your safe that feeling to safe or to happy is not safe. Like i guess im not used to it all the time still. Its like without even realizing it i start drama or i purposely trigger myself because im so uncomfortable with happiness and being safe. Its still so new..... My mind freaks out when everything goes well. Does anyone know how to stop it from happening or how to even notice it in the moment and let the happiness stay and not start drama?
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Feelings and stress over food
Eating Disorder Support / by Yandapanda1998
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 April 21st, 2021
...See more I know i have a problem with food and i want to fix it but im really overwhelmed and i dont know where to start and i need a support person. Anyone looking for a support buddy? I have wanted to loss weight almost my whole life. I was abused most of my childhood and told that i was to fat even when i starved myself, worked out for many hours a day nearly every day, and lost over 50lbs in a few months summer. That was years ago and i consider that my lowest low. Now, years later and now i am an adult i find myself still wanting to lose weight but not just because off all the voices in my head from my past but because im in a healthy relationship with someone and he and I want to have kids and i want to just be healthy and not be worried about health risks that may become a problem because of me being overweight. The problem isnt me starving myself anymore or bulimia like it used to be. The problem is that i never get hunger cues even if i dont eat for a long time. And once i stop eating i cant stop until i feel sick. Im addicted to food. And because we are broke its hard to buy healthy food and i live off of dollar general food for the most part. My partner eats alot of suger foods and its like i cant help but buy multiple sugary foods for each day. I dont even enjoy food that much anymore and its sad. Its like the habits get worse when im stressed and bored. At least its getting warm out so maybe i can spend more time outside instead of inside. Being inside to much is my biggest trigger i think. Anyways im really overwhelmed and new to this app and would like to find some support systems and some answers on what steps maybe i should take? Thanks for listening! 💙
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