Anorexia
I had been suffering for bulimia, and it kinda just lead into me having anorexia. I just started eating less and less and no one really noticed. One day, I just stopped eating all together. Now I only eat once every couple of weeks, as I really don't have a choice. I am never hungry anymore. And if someone makes me eat something, the bulimia kicks in. My reason was abuse. I don't really want to get into the details here.
@aiko123
I understand how you feel. While living with my abusive father I developed anorexia and body dysmorphia as a way to have some control over my life. It's not an easy thing to admit that you have an issue, that is a great step towards progress. I didn't admit that I had an issue and none of my friends ever really noticed because I've always been skinny and they just assumed I was a health nut but in reality, I would exercise off more calories in a day than I would consume. It's a very hard thing to accept that there's an issue, especially without help admitting it. The first step is trying to stretch out your stomach again, take vitamins that help to curb malnutrition and start by eating something small every day. I started with protein shakes and granola bars (always organic because having that control, knowing every ingredient, helped ease my mind). It's also vital to find a different way of coping with the present or past abuse. Whether it means removing yourself from the situation or finding a healthy means of escape if you can't leave right now. It's really hard, I was homeless at 16 because I needed to get out. I promise you that it gets so much better, it's just little things every day.
@sensitiveguava0928 Thank you. For sharing, for the tip, and for the time that went into typing the post.
@aiko123
Of course, if you need someone to talk to I would love to help.
@aiko123 Hi, I feel you. I stopped eating all together for a few years ago. What helped me was going to a pchyciatric center and ask for help. They tought me how to slowly get used to eat again.
@aiko123
My reason was abuse and trauma too...
I was just a teen ager at the time it happened and I did not eat for 3 weeks, lived on coffee only...
I lost 11 kg due to my emotional trauma and my hands were just bones, veins showing through...my legs just bumbed together at the knees, no meat, no muscle left, just skin and bones...
And after my failed soicide attempt I thought this:
Why shpuld I destroy myself just becouse someone wanted to destroy me?
From that moment on I never starved myself just because I was a victim of abuse...I owed it to myself to survive and maybe at one time I will have my revenge too...
I totally know how it is to starve yourself, better than anyone...
