My Cane and Dealing with the Treatment of Disabled People
Today I decided not to bring my cane. Off the bat, I know it's a bad decision, but having a mobility aid makes me feel like a societal burden, especially when people ask me "Why?" I don't know why, I can't get a diagnosis as my freedom in my house is limited, I just know that it helps me feel a little better. Having my cane simultaneously makes me feel better and makes me feel like scum. I also wear insoles for my flat feet, but my hips and knees are a whole other animal, as my whole body feels a lot more finnicky than many others' and causes me problems all of the time.
If someone could talk to me about ways to not feel so insecure and unsure about helping myself feel better at all, it would be amazing <3 The most helpful factor for me is that a character from my special interest also uses a mobility aid for a chronic, invisible illness. Figuring out other ways to validate and support my need for using a cane is what I need.
Sorry that most of this was a rant. I just have a lot to get off my chest. Hope you understand.