Accept me for who I am, then I can accept me for who I've become, maybe I can start to move forward in life
I always wish people would not assume that just because I sign then I am deaf. There are non-verbal, selctive Mute and mute people too.
Just because I inject insulin and I have to keep at watchful eye on my diet and blood sugars, having an insulin pump makes me no different from other people. Yes, I'm classed as disabled, yes it makes me stand out somewhat, but I can still be what I wish to be. Stop making it so hard for me to be accepted. Stop making me feel so alone because I am still a person. I am still whole
I get the feeling that my M I L doesn't seem to get what I am dealing with. I struggle to breathe and I tell her I really cant go to the hairdresser. She tells me that this hairdresser can come to my house. I sort of understand what she is trying to say, but, I think it would be a whole lot worse trying to wash my hair in my sink. I cannot bend over either way for any period of time without severe breathing problems. At least the sinks at the hairdresser and the chairs are better suited for rinsing. I cannot sit with chemicals on my hair for an hour at this point too. The smell and just going out will be too much. It is just the whole thing. I often dont have the strength or ability to take a shower, comb my hair or brush my teeth. I dont think she understands that. I feel lousy that when my step daughter comes I cannot do anything with her. Luckily she is 17 so I dont have to supervise her much.
that I can't do the things I used to the speed of a healthy me. Recovering from my 6th back surgery and pelvis with complications. They tore part of my spinal cord during this surgery and taking a long time to recover. No feeling of left foot and left hand tingling constantly. I ask because patient with me. Not just physically hurting but emotionally as well. I will try my best to do things with you but need to take breaks from time to time
That I was treated badly in High School and have been emotionally abused and feel seperated from my family, even though we appear very close in public. i am always a joke to them. This treatment has left me with little self confidence, self esteem, self worth etc. In other words, the reasons I don't connect and open with people. I'm no where near as confident as my liars make me appear, and social situations make me uncomfortable. Please understand, that it really is me, not you.
