Chronic illness and death
I'm going to start this by saying I'm not suicidal, that's important. I've been up thinking about death and how uncertain I am of how long I have to live. I'm 19, I have a super long list of things wrong with me, but I'm not actively dying. I have many conditions that could spontaneously cause me to become that way though. I am terrified of dying, where a year ago I wasnt. I embraced the fact I could die any day. but now I'm happy and I want to live and I worry that any day could be my last. there's so much I want to do and so many people for me to meet and love and be affected by. I don't know how to come to terms with it again. I don't want my family, friends, or partners to think about me dying but the reality is that it could happen at any time. will I see it coming? will I have time to say goodbye and tell them I love them? will I know when I go? how much time do I have to do everything I need to do, to love everyone I need to love? I want to act like I have all the time in the world but I can't help but worry every day is my last.
@AweTsela
Haha, I am trying to respond, and I got blocked. It thinks I am in crisis. (I am not). I understand how you feel. I have been there. I hope you can embrace your feelings and move through them. It is essential to define your limitations and find ways to work with them and create precious moments and enjoy your life. We all will leave this world eventually, but today is ours.
@AweTselaI I have felt the same also, I keep teeling mysel that death is part of life and that everyone will be okay if I die.
@adventurousBranch3786 i wish you all the safest journeys in your life and a happy one! I love you all from the bottom of my heart... Keep pushing and dont give up ❤
