@dapperPond2037. So sorry your suffering. I too have alot of depression. It's like a dark pit you get stuck in and it's very difficult to pull yourself up. I spend alot of time in the pit. I have a "tool box" of things to do that's supposed to help but usually they don't I just have to wait it out until the light comes back ....
I journal, paint, read if I can, excercise, do chores, shop. But its like wading thru mud I'm in motion but it's weirdly slow inside my head. I get it. It's one of the many reasons I'm here on 7 cups, I needed more support. Good you found 7cups and were strong enough to post here. It took me almost a year to post in community forum. Ppl scare me. Your not alone even if it feels like it, Best 💜 ABB