My name is not important

But here I am anyway....

Good to meet you all- I mean it. I am a 32 year old single mom living with depression. It's been a lifelong, on- and off- struggle for me, but it is hard to admit I'm struggling again. I'm a grad student, work full time at a job I hate and have an awesome son and a guinea pig.

I also hate myself with a passion, struggle with numbness every day, constantly feel like my exhaustion is a physical entity and feel like an abysmal failure, ugly and a total piece of crap. Been through a lot this year- a divorce, a job loss and losing my internship. It's been kinda rough. But I'm still here.

I'm very open to accepting support and giving it when I am able to. Hoping to learn from you guys.

"It's a fever called living that maddens the brain."